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2007-04-24T01:26:00.000+08:00

Teehee. Long time since I blogged yeah! Find it abit troublesome thou. I've been looking at my blog every now and then and realised I want it to be updated. Hehh. First up, starting with my recently taken photo with dear! :)

*me & dear- 21/4/2007*

Well we took this at the Far East Plaza basement when dear brought me to Orchard that particular Saturday. Went FEP to trade in my old Motorola V3 for $70, and to Taka to buy boards for my coming assessment. He bought 2 boards as background for his outfits photoshoot too and also a wallet for his daddy cos spoilt. There was a sale there at the basement and it was quite cheap. Anyway I got a new hp, Sony Ericsson k800i *great cam-whoring phone!* at $238 from M1 using dear's line, since he previously bought his phone alr and no use to get another one. Paid him from CNY angbao and the V3 money. Heh. SO BROKE!

Well I guess its better to start blogging abt recent affairs.

*dear playing pool at Marina Sq*

Well dear brought me to his SAF Family Day on 10/3/2007 (which rightfully shld be cannot bring anyone de.. but it was ok, his frens oso brought their gfs too hehe). Glad I went even thou I had to wake at 6am. There was bowling (which I was bad at and throw dear's face), free arcade games and pool games, free breakfast buffet and a free movie of "Just Follow Law" all at Marina Sq. We go there so many times alr, so it was really enjoyable to do all these, for free sum more! Haha.. Anyway sweetie's really good at pool, and he won! Hehe. So shuai rite.. :P

Anw "JFL" is a good movie, laughed so much and i really enjoyed Fann Wong's acting. And the laozhabor.blogspot.com really exists and belongs to that ah ma! SHE'S SO DAMN COOL can!! Blogs in English and goes arcade! My goodness! :D

*caught you, sweetheart!*

there he is - trying to shun my k800i. My hp is POWER okayy. It has this "bestpic" function which lets you take 8 shots in one go. No way is dear gonna escape! Some more he is driving. :P

That day, we went to Ikea to buy stuffs *okay i forgot what* and at about 4pm, his mom called and told him his youngest uncle had come back to singapore from Australia (where his family emigrated to) for business trip and he was gonna go back that day. So we went back to HG and fetched his mom, claudia (his niece) and baby Rayne (his 2nd sis' baby, brother of Claudia) to Crystal Jade @ Changi Airport for dinner! Spent about $200+ for a table of 7 adults, one kid and one baby.

*baby Rayne Rayne!! So cute.. he has the cutest smile ever..*

*Cut In - this is lovely & cutey Jiaxin!! :D don't u just love babies!*

Jaslyn is such a big healthy chubby cutey baby of 10 months now! From the tiny weeny baby she was, she's grown so much. She's so clever! She can bye, dance, shake,close&open her hands to twinkle,twinkle little star.. I do think she is developing faster than kids her age, but all babies are different and thats special in a way. God-daughter and Rayne are also only age difference of 11 days- Jaslyn at 6/6 and Rayne at 17/6 on 2006.. 2 cute little doggies! *year of dog, just like dear.. hehe*

*25/3/2007- dinner at Indulgz Bistro - my treat cos tempted.. hehe*

Well we went to Indulgz one fine afternoon cos I wanted to try their stuffs, after being tempted since 2006 xmas period after seeing xiaxue's blog advertorial there. I would say its pretty average and the menu should include more items. XX commented the butterfish steak was almost like cod fish / very soft (the dish on lower side of pic) but I did not find it soft, in fact it reminded me of the very hard fish that my mum sometimes buy, in that particular shape/cut. Dear's beer battered fish did not taste of beer *but i think by right shld be no beer taste one, lol* and tasted pretty normal to him. My tomato soup tasted fabulous, and $4.50 only! (albeit a very low, shallow soup dish, hehe). Their webbie is at www.indulgz.com, at Tan Quee Lan Street. Opp Bugis Junction, same stretch as Tian Tian Huo Guo and the Apple Strudel Shop I think. The atmosphere is pretty relaxed and nice! But food, I do not think its really worth it. Cos the mains are pretty small (singaporean behaviour? noo.. both of us did not even feel full after the meal..)

Well talking abt that. Dear has been telling me to save, save and save. And no hanky-panky until I get a job. We can't afford a house, a baby, our living expenses just on his pay alone. So yesh, makes me more motivated. :P He's been nagging at me non-stop to stop being tempted by clothes, shoes, makeup etc and save instead , otherwise how to get married? For this, I'm quite thankful to have him as a bf, he does not depend on his parents to pay off his car, pay for his wedding etc etc.. I told him can borrow frm his parents mah, he will say " So old le dunno how to earn $ why must depend on ur parents?? must depend on ourselves ma". So yeah. Seriously I dunno why guys must buy car and show off but is their parents money. Perhaps they really need the car and would pay their parents in the future. Hopefully is like that larh. Haha. Otherwise as a woman, i won't feel financially secure with a guy who is like that. Just my personal feelings and thots :)

Guys, why must have one-night stands/find pros? Isn't love making much more enjoyable? u can do whatever u want with ur gf.. but if u do with pros, how are u going to dirty talk etc? It will then be just pumping away and satisfying urself, but ur emotional needs dont get fufilled.. Isn't it better if u have a process and development with ur gf/wife.. slowly try out diff things and get closer in the meanwhile? I guess most teen boys dont get to realise that.. cos raging hormones. heh. And please, protection! Don't give in to the guy just becos he dont like the feeling. Like WTH! Tell him u also dont like being pregnant without being married also la. Wan enjoy but dun wan to be responsible for the baby, then in the end, abort. there goes a cute, lovable baby that is ur own flesh and blood!!

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BIRTHDAY CELBRATION 2006! :D

Bah. Back to blogging abt past events! My birthday last year was held at Shore Restaurant, near Changi SAFRA that dear brought me to. He drove by Changi Airport where the airplanes were flying off/ landing/ parking at the strip.. so romantic view.. We both love airplanes and aviation so it was pretty cool.

19th Aug 2006
Dear- Mixed Grill Platter. Me- Baked Crab & Cheese thingy. Plus escargots *yummy* and ice lemon tea (abit weird cos have to add in sugar syrup ourselves, haha). All for ard $40+! Quite value for money. The restaurant faces the sea directly and we sat just next to it. Planes flew directly over us and it was quite frequent. It was very special to enjoy dinner over such nice ambience (there was candlelight too, the romantic effect more towards e end of the dinner where the sky grew darker). Thanks dear, hehe.. so special place :D

*20th Aug 2006- just after midnight..*
Dear trying to puff away my birthday candle! Hehe. We went to Swenson's at Changi Airport after that. Had some fries too, and soup. Yumm. Dear ordered this birthday sundae for me and I made a wish :D Hope every year will be good for me and always with dear.. *bliss*

*21st Aug. my bd! ugly me taken when i go up aft meeting dear awhile downstairs to pass me the flowers.. :P*

Dear bought me this bouquet of purple roses that he stuck a bunch of different coloured glow sticks into. LOL! It read " Shen Ri Kuai Le", "FROM: WILLIAM CHIN", "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" and "TO: AILEEN HOON" from top to bottom. Funny boy hor he?? :P Even thou he could not spend my bd with me on actual day, he made me enjoy a most wonderful bd on that weekend and spend time to come over at night when he had to work early in e morn next day just to pass me e flowers.. so sweeettt..

6th/Oct/ 2006 Spending Mid-Autumn Festival with dear, at punggol park. So many pple were there. Met up with his mom, claudia and other relatives there too. But we walked a whole round on our own :)

This happened in May.. May 20th or 27th iirc. The photo I took off the wedding album on 8th Oct thou. Went to his elder sis Irene's house at Sengkang that day and was her bridesmaid on her wedding. First pic of our "punishments" for the groom and his buddies for the morning and second pic was of the bride and bridemaids. 2 are her ex colleagues and the girl is Claudia.

This was my 2nd time being a bridesmaid already! I told dear, no more helping other ppl le aft tis le, I am supposed to be bridesmaid for zinc too.. they say cannot be bridesmaid for more than 3 times, or will not be able to be married. Lidat how!! LOL.. dear ask me dun be nonsensical -_-"".

Well it has been long since I 'tortured' someone since shir's wedding, hahaha.. it was pretty fun! :)

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Taken on 18th Nov 2006- in the week I worked for Dragon Brand's Bird's Nest for Expo Food Fair! lots of good food there, bought lots of jellies. Hehe.. But it was really bad cos the oil made all of us totally STINK at the end of each day! U can totally feel the oil on ur hair, it reeks really badly and CLINGS onto ur clothes, even ur bra and undies! The nice aunties working with me did warn me of that. Haha. So nv work in food fairs if u can. Unless u can tahan. Haha.

*some days, i in charge of the whole fridge of honey drinks..*

*SATISFACTION! all sold out.. hee.*

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30th Dec 06'

Christmas Lights at Orchard. :D Forgot wad i gave dear liao. heh..

Dear's birthday 2006- 5.10. - Brought him to Vienna Buffet at United Sq for celebration. Bought him this magic book from Times at $40+.. Spent $80 on buffet. Not bad, soup selection pretty wide, food not bad. When we went 2nd time with his SAF buddies thou, dun hav the "xin xian gan" le. so abit sian, cos try everything before already. Dear was very very notti that day, keep pestering me where we r we gg on the car, touch my bag (cos my big box containing the book was inside), pester me what it is, where we are going.. zzz.. i promised him ill be crazy on my birthday on 2007 too! LOL.. it was nightmare!! boh bian, he's the king that day. :P

One year anniversary- 7.10.06 - We went to Jack's Place at Marina, if i rmb correctly. :P No matter what occasion, everyday is special for him&me.. :)

*Valentine's 2007- Spent at this sushi restaurant at Milenia Walk*

Good food, not bad, albeit being a little expensive. Not to mention I really love sweet prawns! Plus salmon and udon, of course. Thanks dear! *muacks* Always love my sweetheart!!

Well that's all for all unblogged past events with pics! Hehe. I do hope I will be as happy as I am now, in the future. I really hope me and dear will last, and be able to spend our lives together as a married couple in the near future. :) Im really lucky to have found him...

*to-be-updated* - my fashion photo shoot and my final collection for graduation, 2007! woots!

***Now Aileen, u must not be slacky! You blogged from 2am to now 4am already! MuST DO UR WORK OKAYY! no more slacking! Monday 30th is ur assessment liao!!***

End with a picture of me.. Thats all for tonight! (Day, actually. 4am wors.) *yawns* Tata..

*cam-whore! :P *

Love;

2006-08-10T15:00:00.000+08:00

Hi ppl. Have been doin some "quizzes"/ "test" online and here are some of them! recently been busy with menwear project at school. spent some time watching fireworks as there is "singapore fireworks festival 2006" and NDP 06' now.. very fun and nice! romantic also. hehe. its near the esplanade area. dear brought me to 2 of the 4 shows already, sat was not so bad, cos we stayed in shop till late but tues there was such a massive jam on the way back, it took 2 hrs to get home! lookin forward to fri's n sat's. took vids to will post em or the piccies! =) nice of dear to acc me.

national day- spent mostly at home. met zinc at 3pm to change my cross stitch package at Elsie's in AMK. went with dear before and he bought this piglet heart-shape pillow cross stitch that says "drive safely" (but of cos is i choose de, he pay only :P). But it din came with any strings nor needle >.< after seein zinc n shir do knitting, and i dun even noe anythin abt it, i decide to be a FU NU (motherly woman)!! hahaha. so i shall do the cross stitch for dear. hehe. zinc bought black n blue thread to knit a scarf for her "xin shang ren" :P den we went to amk central blk 328 to have that yummy western meal again!! its behind courts that block. very easy find de la. the stall is opened by turkish guys and everything is cheap yet of restaurant standard there! zinc also agreed. the grill chicken was soft n tender. mash potatoes specially done with herbs. not those anyhow kinda cook western stall in hawker those kind. it comes with boiled brocolli & carrot with a section of corn also. very nice!! MUST TRY!! the spag was a big plate and i couldnt really finish it. very nice with herbs. it was seafood aglio olio, with 3 prawns n 3 mussels. also ordered chinese herbal soup from one of the stalls which seems to be quite famous, it had lotsa food review articles pasted there. very yum too. all on my treat for zinc! cos she help me call n ask the cross stitch stuffs. hehe. wait till she treat me on my birthday den heh heh heh liao.. :P birthday in 11 more days! wheeeee.

FIRST QUIZ:

Keys to your heart:

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

SO TRUE!

You Are 7: The Enthusiast

You are outgoing and playful - always seeing the happy side to life.
You're enthusiastic and excitable. You love anything new.
Multi-talented, you do many things well... and find success easy.
You prefer to keep things light with others. Opening up is hard for you.

Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will have a few true loves.
You're a little scarred from your past relationships, but who isn't?
It's important to you that your lover is very attractive. You like to have someone to show off.
In fights, you love to debate and defend yourself. You logic prevails - or at least you'd like to think so.
Getting over a break-up doesn't take long. Easy come, easy go.

Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed

You Should Be A Cancer

What's good about you: you're incredibly kind, caring, and generous
What's bad about you: you can be too moody and impossible to understand
In love: you enjoy wining and dining the object of your affection
In friendship, you're: likely to depend on other friends for emotional support
Your ideal job: historian, marine biologist, or religious figure
Your sense of fashion: you dress to match your mood
You like to pig out on: classic home cooked meals, like mac and cheese

What Sign Should You Be?

Your Love Number is 1

You tend to be a stubborn lover, holding your ground in every argument
You take your time falling in love. You aren't the type to lose perspective.
You are loyal (to a fault), and you require the same loyalty in your sweetheart.
At your best, you are a wise and inspiring partner - who sticks around.

What Is Your Love Number?

2006-07-11T17:11:00.000+08:00

Hee. Pics from his sis's wedding! Taken from my hp. kinda blurr thou..

-what i did for fun.. taken during wedding day, aft tea ceremony-

Hmm photos of dear dear Jaslyn! She had a full-month anniversary at 2nd July 2006, Sunday. Mich, Char & Meiying came over too and she's so big now! and very cute. and a lovely SKINHEAD! haha. she's botak now =p

Well she's so cute. Hehe. Making a funny pose! Makes funny noises when she's sleeping. so adorable! i want my mini-me too =P but aft wad shir says.. giving birth is so damn painful.. gosh.. and confinement.. i really hate pain! haiss.. but babies are so cute! haha. i tink jia xin is very guai compared to the other screaming fussy babies le! hehe.

Dear has flown away to Brunei le. since 19th june. for 3 weeks, on work. haiss. i miss him so much. i even cried once! when i really felt so lonely. he called me once for 10 secs when he arrived there. den sms/ call me for abt 10 mins for some days usin skype. its rates are cheaper than if he used his hp to call me. so i love skype! hehe. ytd even talked to him for 1hr 47mins (our longest ever) on skype. got daddy to buy me the microphone earpiece. makes me feel like some telecomms staff. haha.. glad to able to talk to him so long! hehe. alr made some plans on where to go when he comes back on the 17th. hope there wont be any delays in him comin back thou. =(

Hmm got back results also. not so desirable. dont noe why my textile got quite low when the lecturer was always pleased with my results! haiss. all abt 50plus, 60. average was 59 i tink. sians. going to third year at 24th july already.

i love the 4.30pm show at ch 8! watched it when i was in taiwan last year. so its quite long overdue here already. sometimes draggy but quite nice overall. i love the ending song! and it will always end with the "holland V" song starting. very weird haha. recently din wake at 11 so cant watch jaime oliver, david rocco's cooking shows and ambush makeover! those are good shows! also animal kidding, 3pm ch 5. very funny! world cup also just ended and France LOST! gosh so sad. im so sad abt how zidane went out of his last world cup match. wad did that italian guy say to him mans! he's such a great player! and he looks so romantic. haha.

well 6days more to him comin back and i CANT WAIT!! hehe. at some forum, i was crazy abt handmade accessories. first i bought some vintage pearl earrings from my lasalle fren Lilian. but they turned out.. uhh.. umm.. =/ den i bought a gold chain and black pearl bracelet from summerbloomz.blogspot.com. looks real pretty! and a clay cake earring for shir as her birthday! shall post pics when blogger is working right. hahas. now im crazy abt taiwan auction dresses! haha. dear says most are ugly. and some are too formal. he says he gonna hafta wait a suit to match me. hahas!

GOSH. i miss him so much. =( TILL AGAIN!

love; leen

2006-05-30T15:54:00.000+08:00

Nowadays.. been kinda sian to blog alr.. life has been alright.. had assessment which i din slp for one night.. den went ktv.. aft dat jus chase us go home n now awaiting results! hope can go year 3 successfully.. dun wan fail..

nowadays been working at john little. sellling men's shirts n pants. work 10 days alr.. but today n ytd din work. cos they say not alot ppl on weekdays. sian. i need the moolah! i din wanna work on weekends cos dats my pator days. haha.

sadly.. with the loss of many ppl in the recent indo earthquake.. so many ppl need help n they are suffering.. maybe dear has to go there on rescue mission, just like wad he has done for the tsunami in 2004. im proud of him and glad he can be part of helping those ppl BUT.. of cos im worried!! n sad!! still awaiting news of whether he has to go or not. in any case he STILL has to go brunei for one month! sad.. but when he returns, come august, will be my bd and our one yr knowing each other!! hehe.

went to irene (his elder sis) wedding on thurs 25th at Pan Pacific Hotel.. sat at the VIP table.. nice! the food was above average, i guess. $800 per table lidat. had to be her bridesmaid n receptionist. her hubby gave us 4 (including the niece who was 9yrs+) $250, which we split to $60 n the niece $70. n plus his mummy ($12) n the men's side family (weirdly n pathetically, $6! son married give so lil?) give.. can give back some money to dear for payin first. for my black pants n shoes i HAD to buy for work. wah the men's side.. din even bother clean their hse.. can feel the dust.. kitchen SO dirty.. piangs! dear and his mummy says so. but the entire day was fun. felt kinda left out cos when they take family photo.. i have to SIAM myself.. den very awkard feeling.. too bad loh cos i nt married to him yet. i din even go up stage to yam seng. but glad to be with dear dat day..

JUNE- will be having 2 babies births! one is frm dear's 2nd sis.. whose stomach is real huge! n e other frm shir.. really exciting, n is also events dat will make me burst my pocket! haha. mus give angpow n presents liao! hehe.. happily awaiting my god-daughter n future nephew's births. LOL.

meanwhile. poor zinc is away in china. enjoying her numerous shui jiao n cheapppp chinese food! she makes it sound like china is better. i guess cos it supports her "auntie jing shen".. so many cheap cheap things she spend like the merlion liao loh! water constantly splashing out. hahah. mus send her photos of our god-daughter.

well life with the bf has been gd. im like more closer to his family than his to mine.. but no matter, he's been treating me gd, and even thou got other gals out there who tink they can hav him.. im nt scared cos he's alr mine. =) so there.

till im free.. :P

love; leen

2006-01-23T14:05:00.000+08:00

Hello ppl! im back aft one whole freaking mth ++ of absence.. during those days were holidaying (aka slack and slp relaxing days haha). gonna talk quite abit cos much impt things in my life happened!

23rd Dec- zinc's birthday!! celebrated at Sakae Sushi at Marina Sq. This is a part of our conquest for our table of four (me, zinc, shir n zinc's fren)!

gave her a Maybelline mascara and three daisies for pressie. oso a cute bear globe for shir for xmas. zinc always gets bd + xmas pressie cos who ask u born so late! muahahha =P

- 3 of us -

-my own personal conquest-

- first time owning two $100 notes! pay from Asia Fashion Week use almost finish liao..-

-view of mount faber-
firstly.. 19th dec he first told me he love me on sms! hahaha. -.- cos we had kinda like a "big fight" abt someting we werent happy with each other abt. den he say nex time mus say out wadever we are nt happy wit in e future. or bottle up become very serious. heh. so sweet.
24th dec. dear gave me mp3 player for xmas! =) frm creative.. Zen Neeon! 512MB. hehe. i was so happy. i jus randomly told him a list of things he wanted and i din expect dat he will really get. so ex summore. we went to his aunt's house at night (xmas eve) and had xmas celebration. at 11pm we left n i decided i wanna go countdown! so i said mount faber. hehe. we waited damn long just to go up the mountain! as midnight approached we were more anxious not to be stuck at the road to celebrate xmas. in e end reach the top but din get down cos carpark was full and plenty ppl were there alr. so just drive down along the way and countdown on e car while we were at the top. there was a huge gigantic xmas tree deco made of lights and it had 'explosions' at countdown to midnight hehe.

-reflection of my hp on car window-

XMAS- the view at mount faber was good! sooo many ppl. aft that i wanted to go orchard road to hang ard.. in da end.. BIG MISTAKE.. as u guys may noe from newspapers, foreign workers were molesting sg women and spraying the foam sprays on them to blind them temporarily. @$*&$ them man. dun anyhow touch loh. stupid. i went there and i saw wad was happening and it terrified me so much. i nv will go there during countdown again! old or young they all oso touch! i went mcdonald's for toilet, meet his frens awhile at the carpark den went home alr. din walk ard cos of wad was happening. they shld really ban those sprays, just like they shld to bomb bags and stuff. useless crap! wads so fun abt those things man. nonsensical.

16th Dec. I told him there was gonna be a float parade, much like a mini Chingay parade at Orchard that night. So he brought me and his niece there and there was a total of 7 floats! very family day. haha.

-first float taken-

-second float-

well thereafter i started sch on 3rd jan. same as pri sch and sec sch so got that kinda feeling i use to have back then.. sch is now a 3 day week (tues - thurs) and its quite stressful cos u gotta finish all the work for those lessons and it adds up to quite alot. my only lecturer dat is e same is vibhu for pattern drafting. e rest cos change of lessons den all change to mostly angmoh lecturers.. the head oso change.. oso heard dat they sack all my past lecturers cos they wan more angmohs to come in n teach n dat they wan some students to be kicked out cos not enuf space alr so big risk if nv do work. wad the hellll. rubbish!

the new lecturer for illustration is just @$*#&$! damn demanding and not clear with her instructions. first week say use A4, nex week say use A2 de. nonsense. i dun like her. wads so great abt being angmoh? tis is not a angmoh or not issue i guess. but just personally she tinks too highly of her skills n popularity i guess. my textile studies lecturer is good, but since she is from yugoslavkia or something, she talks weirdly and she like very easy to bully! too nice alr. but i guess thats how lecturers are cos if u fail, dats ur own business..

-Kiara-

Anyways I oso got a new dog! Since more than a week ago. Its three years old alr. quite mafan. it ran out twice on one day and luckily was able to catch it back. cos too long nv go out liao den it very bored. now my daddy wants to send it back cos its smelly. wad the hell... i hope it wont be given away!! got gan qing alr.. its same breed as mich's spencer! hehe. my mom oso spent $100 on the dog food and all liao, so will be very ke xi loh.. poor doggy.

life's been fairly well. things are going on a totally new direction now at the start of the new year. shocking things has happened, im in love with a big bully and i have so much work to do! one thing to look forward to is chinese new year. gonna go so much visiting and the $$!!! hehe. hope things go well when dear meets my parents and all. hais. we went to ikea, among other places today to get some stuff. love their restaurant. anw he said he dun wanna haf kids. cos no $. hmmpff. even tho i always say i dun wan cos of the pain, i will wan them someday! hai, wait till our income is more stabilized bah. we oso haven dat close to be talkin abt marrying or worse, kids yet! haha. i oso bought a bracelet for him cos his is old and broken alr.. glad he is happy!
today heard alot abt cooking for loved ones. putting ur heart into cooking for loved ones is a blessing. a happy thing. =) i just hope things go well between us. i dun wanna go thru the whole pain and finding a new one thing again. i hope not lah even thou i might have to. choy! till den, happy 2006! =)

-had a mini makeover at shisedo dat day with lilian n olivia-

-my crazy bro. wahahha-

2005-12-13T19:43:00.000+08:00

hey.. another mth has gone by! whoooshhh. days are spent at home watchin tv, playing gameboy, eat, slp, read on slacky days. weekends are spent gg out with him. Dec 3- 5th he went Bangkok again.. din meet him for bout 5 days in total! got one pants, one gold bag, two short pants n one bracelet. Dec 1st he went to pierce his ear aft askin bout my view at hougang mall. afterwards he said something like "A girl shld have piercings ma, u see guys oso have liao, girls THE MORE mus have!!". hahhaa. that was aft repeated questions of "u want to pierce anot also??" i said noooo! the thought of the pain just turns me OFF. last time, when i witness friends having theirs pierced, the sound of the 'click' just scares me; also the expression on their faces!! eeekkk! However i thought abt it and did it cos..

1. I wan to have earrings too but just scared of pain.. 2. I wanna wear earrings when i get married! 3. He likes it too, so just do it bah!

So.. the next day (Dec 2nd) I pierced my ear! thanks zinc for gg with me that day even thou u very tired.. *huggies* wanted to pierce at old ntuc e jewellery shop but it closed down.. so went to 77th Street even thou there was HUGE doubt abt their professionalism. it turned out well and didnt pierce the earrings STRAIGHT in (instead of slanted down) like zinc!!

very ugly ah.. but i lazy to photoshop it ahahaha...

that day was also the day he lost a friend of his who committed suicide, jumping down 12 storeys at 2am cos of r/s probs. i felt sorry abt it but at the same time, feel that life is extremely precious. there are many consequences to what we do. have he thought of his parents, his friends who would be left to cope with their loss? just cos of a girl who din care anymore? its just very sad cos i love my life and so shld everyone, dun ever think bout killin urself! i still wanna get married, set up a boutique, travel ard the world and tell my grandkids bout my lifestory! ahaha.

well after workin at Asia Fashion Week, I'm $200 richer! e others get $350 i think.. due to that we were actually not promised salaries when we got the job but at least we have a good amt of money! better than havin none. so im gonna get xmas pressies for my besties and boy. i alr have some idea on what to get.. hmm..

oh ya. lets travel back to 17th Nov 05'- made a lovely oreo cheesecake for him! =)

yumyum!

made his name out of mini-oreos. his dad had 2 pieces of my cake without askin him! ahahaha.. for ur info the cake was cut into 6 pieces and the size of my hand palm + fingers which is small. but the height is quite high. hehe. dear said it tastes better than my first attempt at making cheesecakes (it was white choco cheesecake) but still too cheesy for his taste. but i think its taste quite ok, maybe cos its made using chilling, not baking..

ehh.. ah ya.. also wanted to go to the BIG BOYZ TOYZ exhibition at EXPO (sian of dat plc aft gg there everyday for Asia Fashion Week) but den when dear brought me there, his friends said NTH to see!!! wahahhaa. even can go in walk one round for free cos u can just 'cheat' by talkin to the promo girls. i was expecting it to be good with great cars but seems like a disappoint just like Sexpo.. ah well. There was also SITEX going on so we went.. it was good, loads of tech gads and products.. he went back the other day and got a Dell Laptop! So cool. heh. few weeks before that also went to the Food Exhibition there..

La la. im So bored!! lets talk bout Dec 10th. I tried to make Creamy Corn and Chicken Soup for him!

Cutting the #*$&#$* ingredients!! i woke at blardy 7.30, and had a date with Zinc to go market with me. in the end her MOM called her to go AMK's market!!! and she FANG WO FEI JI!! HMPFFFFFF stupid zinky! so i decided to go MYSELF! i dilly dally till bout 9am to go down myself. travelled ard NTUC and the wet market and spent $30! the chicken alr cost me $9! and i only gave him like one medium bowl full while i had a blardy whole pot which my brother THREW away!! it was too salty and my chicken was burnt anyway. hah! first time attempt alr ok liao la.. hahaha.. i intended to make another dish but i din have enuf time. i spent 10am cooking till 1am wor! including cutting those stuff up there! so difficult. guys, pls dun think be housewife very relax.. cookin is a SKILL too!! very difficult one ok.

talkin bout that, i think girls are meant to suffer pain for guys. firstly, the first pain i rmb suffering for him was CHILLI burn. dat hurts way more than ear piercings. also getting cut while cooking etc.. its not a complaint but something i believe is e way we were created. later on, i gotta lose my virginity (aiya that hurts also even thou awhile), i have to give birth (the ultimate pain!!) and have to suffer more emotional pain than guys in ANY case!! well at least to me, love is worth it. even thou guys can be jerks and be unwilling to give way, its good to noe someone will be there for u, to hold ur hand and listen to you no matter what. =) sometimes there are worries (like his ex, whether he is faithful, or nv do anything bad behind ur back) but i guess there's the golden word of TRUST. it doesnt come by easy, ive trusted and ppl have betrayed trust but i guess the right one wud earn our trust and keep it. I guess when ppl do things, the impt thing is not to regret. do what u think is right. i hope ill be happy and blessed in the long term!

sch's starting 3rd Jan 06. i passed my past semester! results came back..

Design Studio - 66

Pattern Drafting (most scared fail but HENG AH!!) - 57

Production Methods - 66

CAD- 68

Assessment Presentation - 55

Module Mark (Average mark)- 62

Marketing - 79 (SOo HAPPY!)

Comms and Presentation - 58

Module Mark (Avg Mark) - 69

So yay! =) Till I free again..

LOVE!

2005-11-15T11:06:00.000+08:00

whoosh. another week plus have gone by. last saturday- thurs (5th to 10th November) was busy with asia fashion week.. 5th was a short briefing, 6th & 7th was fittings and rehearsals day while 8th to 10th was the official event. In charge of 2 models under my name, which is Thailand's A-ngoon and (i tink) Singapore's Man-ju (indian, i think also). very diva. i love my thai model! she walks well and has an exotic look.

A-ngoon modelling for Devki's (brand from India specialising in Indian clothing like saris etc)

Other models i helped out include:

Evelyn and her other friend. (frm Malaysia) talks with Malaysian accent.. haha.

Back Stage. Left is Makeup Team. Right is Hair Team (frm Jean Yip Academy.. sponsored one) actually behind very messy, hot and squeezy when show is on..

Me and A-ngoon! (her clothes from Fang, malaysian brand)

Me and Nong (one of my fav models cos she look so pretty.. Thai)

Models for Hongkong Brand 'Faccio De Culo' (heard Faccio means Butt in Italian or something). the designer is quite eccentric. eccentric designs!

my beautiful model! =)

getting prepped for Yvonne's Creative's wedding show.

all taken backstage.. like the hat! so cute.

All Malaysian models here.. Evelyn on extreme right.. i love the first model's veil! so romantic..

Two of them..

evelyn is the first model.

my model 2nd.

evelyn again. wah so many more pics.. tired le..

group walk (evelyn first, A-ngoon 2nd and third i dunno who le..)

2nd outfit - evening gown.. a red lace dress with long coat.

Ugly ugly me with her.. haha.. the wonders of makeup!

Melissa loves the dress so much and wants something like that for her own wedding next time! hahaha..

Finale!

Wearing Bridal from Devki's.. EXTREMELY heavy material.. wah piang i had to drag it out from its hanger.. the model says its very hot wearing it. haha. there was a misunderstanding between the marketing manager frm the brand and us.. she told us we cant survive in this industry and dat we shld go back to sch and cry etc etc just cos we gave suggestions and feedback like the material was too fragile, they put in new outfits without informing etc etc. the co-ordinator couldnt even tahan her and left. some of my colleagues also left but was told by da big boss to stay. i was so angry. just cos we said her outfits very diff to wear must scold us like that? question our professionalism? den ask ur own dressers come, dun ask us.. i said wanna smack them den dear say i very ah lian eh. -_-" so angry..

Finale! This show went TWICE cos of the misunderstanding.. help them with business. heard after both shows their booth had a very huge crowd wor.. admittedly their clothes design are really unique and special. very delicate and intricate.

I was in charge of Malaysia's Bernard Chandren for Opening show.. featuring 5 designers. the last two being the Malaysian and Singaporean (Francis Cheong). Designers are really super diva!

With Classmates from Lasalle No (2nd from left), Nadia (beside me wearing pink wool overalls) and Mel (2nd from right). The rest are the 4 male models and a thai model (Kookitt or something) in between No and Nadia..

Grp photo of Dressers and our two Chereographers..

Me and StevenSunny.. The Chereographer! I love his "kanna F**ked" quote.. lols..

Grp photo with Chereographer, Staff, Dressers and Models.. On e Last Day =(

A Decent photo. wahahaha.

On the 9th Nov (2nd official day of asia fashion week), Dear for no reason say wanna fetch me.. need to go work at 8AM! he had duty at 5pm so he say can go back slp again.. so sweett~ i suddenly say very hungry on da car and he suddenly took out this bag of Twiggies and HL milk. he bought breakfast!! awww~ hehe. i gave one of them to my model thou. got 4 pieces of bread. never see before this twiggie kinda bread. hmmm.

On 10th Nov (last day of asia fashion week) he had to work at his marina sq shop.. and i ended ard 6pm plus (unexpected.. they always delay our gg home time, i went home at abt 2am plus on the first day loh!). so went to find him.. i got the indian sticker to paste on the forehead kind on my ear for fun.. think i look pretty with earring leh :P

snatched his jacket to wear.. muahahaha. chocolatey colour! i was so tired there.. he had his pms on that day (guys go pms-y for no reason!) and was saying loads of stuffs.. poor boy mus be quite stressed. went to eat chin chow at the rochor soyabean there.

hmm Friday slack le.. sat (12th) went to e food exhibition at Sg Expo.. sian of expo liao!! (asia fashion week at Hall 2B there..) nth much really. wanted to try the codfish sharkfin soup (xue yu!!) but kinda mafan.. aft dat went to tampines mall and century sq shop shop.. so funny, one thing. we went by this stall selling you tiao and the smell was so damn strong. i just blabbered "hao you tiao de wei dao oh!!" (wad a 'you tiao' smell oh!) Made him laugh so much (me to be precise) haha.. say somethings wrong with me.. the chinese lidat.. lols. bought Jay's new album November Chopin there.. quite nice but some songs kinda boring~ love Ye Qu!

aft that went to bugis make shades for his glasses.. his fren never open shop dat day.. hmm~ then went bugis junction shop shop.. was lookin ard for boardshorts e whole day.. finally he bought it at World of Sports.. ask him get the red ones. bought another OP boardshorts for his niece.. so cute, very small size.. i dun haf!! =( but its cos dun haf the kinds i want. haha. oh ya went to temple pray.. and go the pasar malam there.. one banner saying "Tu Ran Da Jian Jia!" (Sudden Sale!) LOL... like all of a sudden got sale.. mus go see for urselves! bought a hp pouch there. drank starbucks mocha. mmm.

after awhile went to marina sq for parking.. go suntec shop.. we went to carrefour and bought loads of things. he sunday had duty so bought loads of food to eat there with his frens. so fun. Sara Lee Choc Cake(i heard CELERY cakes and thought got this flavour one meh?! HAHA.), Potato Chips, etc.. met his frens at swenson's at marina sq, ate fish baked rice. they wanted to go bowling but decided dun go le.. he tml work so early at 8am. den went to swee choon dim sum takeaway before gg home.. not as nice as the marina sq foodcourt one thou, even if its more famous. blehh. had so much fun. i told him i loved him on dat day. he say he buy things for me den i love him (as joke). hmmpff! gonna bring his niece go suntan together sometime.. hope he can be free. wanna try the new things they have at sentosa.

sunday (13th) he duty.. i slack at home and "kanna f**Ked" by dad. (Steven's quote lol.) felt so pressurized and stressed. cried so much. like everything's my fault. wad the?! i still cold war with him. dont act all nice nice then stress out me just cos u wanna vent anger on me. u wanna use the hard way ill use it on u too. softhearted pple just cant survive anymore. haiss. went amk supermarket too and bought loads of things..

monday (14th) he went to Malaysia with his best fren to see car things.. they nv do properly den in the end put back same car seats so wasted trip.. haha. but he bought my chewing gum back and loads and loads of vcd!! chicken little, herbie .. etc.. holiday at home wont bored le =) he called me over at mlaysia but it was unknown call and i thot it was my aussie fren so din pick it up (no time lar..he talk very long de :P). sweetie him. oh well. today's another slackie day. zinc's might meet me today pick bd pressie for bokai! eeek. she's sick. mus tc okie. sounds so terribly sick. and shir like disappeared of the face of earth. got bf dun care bout us! hmmpff. we're frens on standby~ *>.<

love!!

2005-11-14T16:01:00.000+08:00

You are Blue Koala, who is extremely honest person, and will say things that come up in your mind straightly. (Not really, sometimes only depending on factors)

You are also active and very cheerful. (yessss. happy happy when i shld be.)

You also possess feminine attraction and have distinguished atmosphere. (hurhurhur..)

You are very popular, and tend to be with lots of people. (popular not really.. but i noe quite alot pple i guess..)

You value your friends too. (DEFINATELY.)

But unlike your outlook, you don't like to loose and are a strong-minded person. (yeah hate those shui bian loose ppl who bed others easily.. and im strong-minded)

You possess strong will-power, and are independent enough to carry things out without getting the help of the others. (strong will power maybe.. but im blur so need help sometimes..)

You have great creativity sense and are much talented in this. (i hope so..)

You act simply, but you possess complicated inner emotions. (yes yes yes!)

You may be thought little bit eccentric. (yaloh..)

You like to lead varied life, and try to change the atmosphere yourself too. (yups.)

You can make quick decisions, and possess courage. (courage? possiblyy. quick decisions i guess so..)

You are well liked by both men and women. (ya can say so bahs.)

You have great sense of instinct and can get right at the point of things. (i trust my instincts. get right? i hope so)

You can affect people as well. (possibly.. but not so bah)

You are very strict on money. (NOO.. im a spender)

You will not go buying things on impulse. (i DO!)

Someone you love and your love life is what is most important to you in your life. (yes definately.)

You possess great natural skill to manipulate men. (muahahaha)

You should not rush into marriage after a passionate love. (really? hmmm.)

BY: http://noracom.net/eng/fortune/color_cheki1.php

2005-10-26T20:30:00.000+08:00

16th Oct 05- a tuesday.. rare to see him on a family day. he came from home bout 10pm. both of them signing the agreement for their repairment and insurance claims. left is my dear and right is dat Etienne (who lives in Shir's blk, who knocked into him).

waiting for him at home.. grr. found a fren he havent talked to in ages and made me wait half an hr more! hahas. aft that went to eat prata at prata shop below my hse.. and saw serene and her wud-be husband.

21st Oct 05' - our 2 week anniv. but dunno he noe anot. hahas. din meet him for the past few weekdays.. after fetchin his mom to work, he came to pick me up and we went to parkway parade (for no particular reason). walk ard there abit.. quite boring ehs.

den i wanted to eat kuishin-bo buffet at suntec. so we go see see loh.. really damn ex. heh. went toy'r'us walk ard and saw tv actors tang yu shu (who plays Dayang's rival-in-love in Tong Xin Yuan) and Zeng shi mei (who plays Daqiu's Uncle's daughter who seduces Daqiu in said show). So funny loh.. he keep wanting to see the actress (to make me angry and not interested in the actor summore). that guy really has a bad-guy look.. scary.. he smile alr like crook.. eeek.

after dat went carrefour buy sushi for his 2nd sis and a dvd of... 'Shi Wan Ge Wei She Me'!! a childhood show i watch.. teaches u general knowledge like why prawns turn orange after cooking.. cartoon lai de. so cute. but not buy for me de. haha. for his niece. i reccomend de leh..

den walk ard suntec fountain area. dunno wad to eat hehs. went to milenia walk. i wanna eat ex de. hahha. Harvey Norman is damn big there. my heels were hurting me so much by that time that it was so difficult to walk. grr. in the end settle for sakae sushi at marina square. i ate salmon nabe (he said the hokkien vulgarity out ok!! lol). he eat tempura udon. we shared the $1.90 fried tofu and $6.90 salmon rolls.

aft that nowhere to go.. but i dun wan go home so early. went to kallang indoor stadium there look at the sea (or river). sat on Green Tea carton cardboard and its so romantic. haha. i love my artistic photos. =P

Hong Jun Yang!! 23rd oct. went to find dear at MS.. before that went to J8 with zinc at ard 5pm. so heng, got to see Jun Yang there for the Converse event. he sang 'Guardian Angel' and give out awards to the design shoe winners.. so handsome! he looks so plastic thou.. makeup kinda weird.. but still so handsome!! finally i see im in da flash!!

very blur pic.. used 4x zoom.. blur le still very handsome eh.. haha. the hosts were jaime yeo and some other girl.. jaime's legs were like stick thin!

went to his fren's hse to play mahjong after work. i played dai dee with his frens.. punishment drink gassy drinks.. almost make me bloated.. yucks.. lucky dear help me 2 times. haha. his fren is alr married.. his wife quite pretty. but their hse loads of hamsters and one chinchilla. the chinchilla is so cute lohh. kawaii. its slpin rite here.. head lie down on the ledge and eyes closing halfway. cutee. after watching 2 soccer matches, went home bout 2am..

26th Oct- makin WHITE CHOCOLATE CHEESECAKE for dearest with shir. she make a small one for Ronald.. the mixture turns out abit yucky! my kitchen was in a big big mess. now shir is coming my hse downstairs to get it. i hope it turns out good. arrgh! im so scared dear will find it too sweet. or yucky. blearggh. wish me luckk.

loveee.

2005-10-26T01:07:00.000+08:00

dear frens;

life have been pretty boring these few days. slp, wake up, eat, slack, online, watch tv, slp again. repeat many times. cept for the weekends when i get to see him and redeem some colour in my life, there is nth much i can do at home. but its better than having to go sch. i slp bout 10 hrs everyday! =)

well my frens are busy with sch or busy with bf.. so im quite left alone.. not close to my classmates also. as for him, i alr accept da fact he is only free on weekends and dat i have to acc him OR ELSE i wont see him cept for 1 or 2 hrs aft his shop closes on weekends at 10pm. he used to meet his ex like once per week. she (my fren) is a outgoing and always out person.. either shopping, hanging out or clubbing. dats y she cant tahan. recently a wave of 'michelle-ness' comes in. she's been msging him on msn (he ignored her) and wished him happy birthday (cos i peeped. haha). and apparently he still owes her two perfumes he bought at airport from his last overseas trip. they weren't on talkin terms. ahh well. he promised to give her so he wud. she only wants the Angel one (dunno wad brand) and i shall take the DKNY 'Be Delicious' one. ive been wanting that for a long time (since i always pester darren to buy for me last time.. haha!). but its so weird getting somethings she dun wan. its alright. i dun mind. ill just ask him buy some other things nicer than her perfume. hmmpff. cant help bein jealous. also spied and realised she added all his friends on friendster. oh the pressure of this!! ive met them twice and they were quite funny ppl. i asked him e other day 'does michelle talk to ur frens alot?' . "not really, talk same amt as u loh, why leh?". 'orh.. jus asking only'..

bahs. frustrated bout this. pms blues. im LATE! when isit coming for real! my hormones are mad for like almost a month. pssssh.

argh. the photo function is not working. hmmpff. ill update our 2nd week anniv with photos soon. so fast time flies by.. take care!!

lovee.

2005-10-26T00:49:00.000+08:00

From: Googlism.com Search: Aileen.

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aileen is born march 19th 2002 (noo. im not three years old.)

aileen is taking a business communication course and learning public speaking techniques through the

aileen is a traditional artist with a passion for portraits (kinda true)

aileen is a writer and actress (aileen tan!)

aileen is in town aileen is in town aileen is in town (yea.. shopping~)

aileen is rather goodaileen is not one to flaunt coquettishness

aileen is 18 years old (ZHUN!)

aileen is the csm secretary and the life

aileen is not only going to ring in the new year with a new baby (really?? =S )

aileen is more than a teacher

aileen is indeed a singer/songwriter of note

aileen is back in the hot seat (yeah.)

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aileen is gone; but morning's rous'd echoes to the deep dells proclaim (WHADD?!)

aileen is now taking yoga to houston

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aileen is originally from blairgowrie in perthshire

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aileen is an optimist

aileen is my baby sister and easily one of my best friends

aileen is a fast emerging singer songwriter whose compelling lyrics and wonderful melodies will keep you listening for hours (I wish..)

aileen is a child development specialist with more than 14 years of experience in infant and child mental health; early intervention and prevention servicesaileen is a trained bates method natural vision education teacher with vast experience based in edinburgh

aileen is a woman with a mission (most certainly.)

aileen is as talented and dedicated on the court as off

aileen is single (not now ;) )

aileen is a violinist and has composed songs such as golden melody and change about world

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aileen is your typical young woman (yesshh.)

aileen is capable of producing rainbows up to 2 (wooott.)

aileen is in fact a "jersey lass" (wadever that means.)

aileen is very professional and competent (i hope so.)

aileen is an applied mathematician (NO WAY.)

aileen is relinquishing the job of president but we can be sure that she is going to continue to work for the environment as well as addressing environmental

aileen is an active member of telework ireland

aileen is still doing a prodigious amount of research for these pages

and loads more but they were damn lame and makin no sense. fun rite. try it for urself. =)

2005-10-17T21:39:00.000+08:00

-PICS from last post-

the CUTE lil hermit crabs we saw at J8. one for $25 and a whole set for $60. sheesh. on da day he asked me to be his gf. 2nd Oct 05.

workin at da ktv. 01-10-2005. my view from the KJ counter.

3rd Oct. out to Esprit for grp meeting - marketing and comms project. tried this lovellyy skirt but even size 32 din fit me nicely. =(

Before going out to work at the kTV. 5th Oct 05. HIS BIRTHDAY! he hide it frm me man. hmmpff. i work till end then he came to pick me up and we had supper at calvin's hse there in tpy. so normal hor. he wear cap that day so cute summore. hehs.

Another view of da KTV.

Pre-Raphealite artwork by i forgot whom. opps. a lovely friday. i said YES to his question (frm the last post where i left off). he still say "i mian qiang be ur bf loh. whaha.' Nonsense! =P had design studio presentation that day so can rmb. i thot of it for 5 days. but honestly thot bout it for bout 2 days only. he treats me well. and his chracter is not bad. i can see dat he likes someone like me. i trust him to make tis work to his best. fate decides.

'so now can hold ur hand le hor?" " ya u'd better or else ill SMACK u."

8th Oct: // our first date out as a couple. first stop: old airport road. made buttonhole for my blouse project. "why first button mus be horizontal and the rest vertical ah?" he asks. 2nd stop:bugis the hawker centre 3rd floor to buy fabric. all da while NEVER hold my hand lohs! we both damn shy. then to GUAN YIN temple to pray. as we walk along to the temple, i remind him of our first meeting right there at the railing opposite the temple.
"rmb when we first met, over there?" "ya" "u so bad one, still dun wan to walk over and tell me u come liao" "i wait for u to finish talkin on the fone mah!" i wanna smack him. =/
so we went in to pray. i took joss sticks. placed it in the huge urn bowl or dunno wad they call it. then went in cos he wanna get the pack of flowers for blessings. THEN HE HELD MY HAND! for da first time. led me to the front to get the flowers and some sweets for me. then we held it and walk towards bugis village and to his shop there.

woot! and he gets up the one wheel bicycle! *at bend in between bugis village and to the temple.*

i was so very very happy. aft that walk all da way to the national library. he almost fell aslp just seeing so many books. i love the 11th floor da most cos it has the highest ceiling and looks like some rich guy's private collection in his own library. its too big! waste money on it i tink. but still ok lah. aft that drove to china sq. there got alot good food. but no parking. so just takeaway pie at Don's and left.. for IMM. ate Han's there, window shopped alot, saw his good buddy at the $2 shop and left again.. for IKEA. i very much wanted to eat there! but full house anyways. we both love ikea. its just so nice. saw Vell there. went opp to grab Haagan Daaz ice cream. yumm. he owes me. hahh. went home!

im sorry if its too boring for ya. but its for jotting down my memories, ya? *like anyone reads it. lol*

ahh. 10th Oct. rushin marketing report for presentation on tuesday. sat at the comp whole day. wed had CAD presentation. thurs off, stayed up all night to finish everything. one hell of a night! cant finish all my pattern drafting :( jus pray hard wont fail.. haiss.

my assessment table. anyhow put. compared to my classmates its like UGLY! *friday 14th Oct*

12th Oct. went to zinc's house. she tempted me with her mashed potatoes. so i went and since my mom called to say there's no dinner at my hse, she cooked U-Dong mian for me! yum. i noe u take da pic for me to post here one.. wahaha.

one thing to say here. I LOVEEE U ZINC! i din mean to abandon u okie! im not an ungrateful ingrate! (doesnt it mean the same thing? hahas.) 12 yrs liao i oso noe. now i understand how shir feels when she has to tahan with me. LOL.

the red shoes at orchard cineleisure. 14th Oct, aft leaving presentation at 9.30am. wanted to watch corpse bride there, but it has been running pretty long in the cinemas alr. classmates checked that PS got screening there at 11.30 so went, lunched at yoshinoya, shopped alort then went back for the nerve wreacking results. i passed assessment at 55marks. blouse got a Class I results (ard 70 marks i got). so happy i passed. just scared pattern drafting wont pass now.. hais.

15th Oct (saturday): my mom's frens came frm taiwan. so brought them out. first stop: Chicken House. saw wk there. i din expect to see him there! skinny, change specs liao.. was feeling kinda shocked cos its totally unexpected. he treat us the meal. coOl. =)

headed off to raffles city shopping mall. shopped at Esprit for abt 1 hr. bought a denim skirt and tee. but most of the time was my mom and her fren shoppin and trying out clothes.. bored. went supermarket, bought salmon sushi wrapped ard crabmeat and avocado and salmon roe. damn nice! aft buyin drinks we went off.. to MOUNT FABER. wad the?! but the scenery quite nice. had drinks, i madly took photos of myself by myself =P and then went to famous laksa at east coast road, as recommended by dad's newly bought MakanSutra! next time shall show william da book and ask him bring me those places. lols. the laksa no kick leh, not hot at all. went home and i went out to meet him at his shop ard 9.40pm. his elder sis was there too. she's so pretty! hahas. as promised, he brought me out to movie at PS. watched Goal! got beckham, raul, zidane and newcastle team! hahs. pretty touching movie. our first as a couple. =) touched his hand, my head on his shoulder but my hair kinda itched him. hee.

then went to meet his frens at SEMBAWANG park. some really really ulu place near his airbase. cos his frens came to his shop earlier on. they played some weird card games and drank water as punishments for losing. he held mah hand in front of his frens! sweeeett. went home at about 4.30am! lols. *do not noe why da photo turn out like dat, but its a shipyard, the park is facing the sea and i stood with him lookin at da sea for a long time. got ppl fishin at the wooden dock.*

THEN. badluck happened. i look out of my kitchen window instinctively and found him still below. a motorcycle crashed into his car. his mirror on driver side was knocked out, a big dent on his passenger door and scratch on his window. he made a police report, the guy was talkin damn loudly at the station. refused to admit his fault. he just SPED into the bend when u are supposed to slow down and the car is obviously there! wad a damn ass. im so heartbroken. and feel bad cos it happened at my hse =S

DO U SEE the missing mirror? his mirrors got auto fold in function de, left the wiring only lohs. well da guy offered to pay $200 in e end, the rest by installments. william says the damage more than $200 to fix liao loh~ sads. today morning he go fix . dunno how liao. work frm 2pm till now still not outta work. poor boy. tmr oso no need see him, is family day.

ah well. i miss him loads. i hope tis works out. CHOCOLATE man! now holidays for 2 and a half months. then going to help out at asia fashion week as dresser on November. wanted to go for the singapore fashion week one but heard it was damn disorganised lah, summore mus report at 9.30am and wait 2 hrs for the show to start doin nth sounded so unappealing! hope asia fashion week will be better. they ARE definately more organised.

love;;

2005-10-07T22:50:00.000+08:00

i have not been bloggin ! lols. cos not much photos. zzz. nowadays busy with rushing projects.. on the 14th of Oct is my assessment date, followed by 2 mths of HOLIDAYS! =)

absolutely no photos for u guys tis time. go out so many times, but keep lazy to take photos.. heh.

he has finally asked me to b his gf! i made topshell for him dat day. 2nd Oct. 11.14pm. "CAN U B MY GIRLFRIEND???". said i treat him v nice. asked me to tink abt it. oKayyy so i tink liao.. until today (friday) he never ask again.. how leh? hmmpff.

that day i made the topshell. had chilli burn! melissa said maybe cos of it, thats why he touched by wad i do for him. maybe, i guess. i couldnt slp till 4am. and woke up EVERY hour. till 7am, the final and last WORST pain that felt like a thousand needles pricking my fingers. i had my hand in a cup of ice the whole time. went online at ard 3plus and friends told me to try oil and butter (cos chilli dissolves in fat-based substance) but it din work. i guess the chilli seep in alr. all cos i removed e seeds and din wear gloves. BAH. really bad day. after his work( i tink), we went to J8 and cos i had dinner at home alr.. just acc him eat McDonald's.. lol.. then walk ard and he bought a BearBrick Bear for me.. he chose the military one! sucha coincidence. saw hermit crabs sold at J8 as pets. cute~ next time upload photos.

the rest of our outings kinda forget le.. today we go chomp chomp at serangoon gardens and ate BBQ seafood. poor boy, got blisters and tired frm not enuf slp. aft that went heartlands mall at hougang walk ard see see. 8pm come back. just msged him to thank him. cos he came to sch to fetch me without i ask him and acc me even thou he so tired. reply me say i boliao! hmmpff.

assessment is coming, im gg crazy.. mus work harddddddd.

"So u tink finish le? blah blah" he replied.

"Hmm ya i think finish le. blah blah blah" i said. LOL.

*updated every few mins* " so how? blah blah"

"blah blah but u mus ask me properly! sms say is so weird.."

"orh u go bathe le tell me"

UPDATE SOON! =)

lurvess,

2005-09-27T20:52:00.000+08:00

PROJECTS. they drive me nuts. but im so slacky. grrr. end october ending semester already. lookin forward to the holidays liao. haha!

ugly ugly me. =(

anyways. got a few stuffs to update bout.

firstly, went out with zinc. 20th sept. saw this weird weird drink at NTUC at J8-

it says : CHEERS - the DRINK TO DRINK if you DRINK. like wad the?...

worth $2.90. drink ONE per day only. below reads a tagline like "Party Harder! Wake Up Fresher!!" -__-"

most ridiculous drink ive seen. haha. sounds like those tonic they sell to boost 'duno-wad' illegally. haha.

REVIEW of PEPPER LUNCH!!

19th Sept. Me and Him to Pepper Lunch at B1 of Shaw House (where Lido is).

Many Many ppl that day. Thats the counter. with a PLASMA tv. pointing at us. i dun think anyone knew there was a tv there, cos we were sitting at those seats all around a wall. haha.

we ordered hamburger and egg set meal! ard $10.. inc rice and drink. shared cos i simply cant finish and dun like meat anyways..

he cooking for me. i commented that shld be woman cooking and he cook for me like very weird.. last sunday (27th sept) went again and he say "i thot last time somebody say is women shld cook one??" when i ask him cook. hahaha. i hate hotplates. cos they sizzle and might splatter onto me >.<>

his shop the other day, 16th sept. at marina sq. went to acc him ard 9plus. then went lau pa sat for supper that day i think.. hmm. last sunday after pepperlunch also went his shop. till i DIE. nth to do, sunday not much customers.. blah blah. but nvm. i dun mind it very much. lol.

sunday's timetable (25thsept) : wake up, meet him at 3 plus, go marina to ask angie questions for my marketing project on Esprit. went to Cineleisure cos buy pressie for Olivia. It was her birthday. She works at Heeren Converse. so after giving her a pair of earrings "O-shape" from Alphabets series for $4, found out he had to work. (asked him whether she was pretty for three times cos i cant tahan, and he jokingly say girls lidat, say she pretty honestly oso kanna scold. lol) so went there, saw his 2nd sis and acc him till shop close. then wanted to go china sq for supper. but close le. instead takeaway soyabean curd. and ate ice cream at 7-11 below my hse, while a buncha ah beng morons joked and laugh away. at one point see very very closely his car wheels. haha. we just stare at them. he bought car mag and then sent me home. then we talked on e fone abt 45mins. he forced me to bathe. or mushrooms will grow on me. wah piang. first time being forced to bathe. 12am plus summore. okay too much info but rmb this blog is for me to write down stuff for me to rmb okay! lol.

the freakin dengue fever van. it remind me so much of taiwan! cos when i went taiwan last year, they were having elections soon. they had these vans pasted with the nominee's faces and slogans. and flags. and LOUDSPEAKERS. urging ppl to vote for who who who repeatedly. this is just exactly like it! except its promoting how to prevent dengue instead. but seriously, who can hear it from up there?! everything the loudspeaker says is soooo blurred. waste of taxes.

this is where my 4X zoom comes in handy =) a close up of the van!

finished my 2nd skirt one week ago. was in a terrible rush for it, cos i dunno how to do it. missed one lesson a few weeks back and everything was messed up liao. very hard to catch up. i think it suks alot. there are tears and sloppy lines. im sure i wont get as much marks as my first skirt! =( sobs sobs.. wont fail i happy liao..

front view. Shawl courtesy of Fi! =) see how bad it looks. pfft.

back of skirt. looks better. haha.

silly dorkie me with da model. =)

24th sept- auntie joanne's housewarming party at her new condo! *gasp*!

Its just so so nice. quite posh. 3 toilets. seems smaller abit than HDB but still, very very nice.

the view frm the party area to the swimming pool, at evening. quite romantic ah, so dark. haha. someone touch u oso dunno who.. wahaha.

at night. even more nice. anw the condo is beside whampoa hawker centre. the one i like! got a nice steamboat there. wah live there can everyday go there eat le. lol. photos from here onwards are about me me me, in the TINY little gym. with only 6 equipment (including one excercise ball) so if u wanna see, mus see friendster pic. had some food. most time spent in her house cos our family housewatch for them while watching tv. went home aft watching finish 'She Diao Ying Xiong Zhuan". reach bout 12am. fun~ like her house. next time go swim. haha.

well. sch is ending soon, as I've mentioned. i mus not be lazy anymore. shucks. i just cant resist the temptation of computer. then hafta rush projects liao. why i lidat.. hai . boh bian.

TUESDAY. 27th sept: today morning, he aft duty came to pick me up at my block. then went ATM take cash. (spend alot time there cos no nearby ATM) afterwards ate McDonald's pancakes! yumyum. so sweet. well too bad he aint my bf. haha. just being frens first, so nobody misunderstand ok. went to sch, acted out this deordorant(forgot how to spell) advertisement. very funny, caught first part in my hp. lol. anyways. mum got me my Esprit watch! kinda loose cos i so skinny, but ah well.. it can fit at least. lurvee it. ard $90+ after discount. take photo next time. lazy lahh. 4 projects due and one whole load of freakin pattern drafting to do. suks.

well. its been nice updating. even tho not much ppl reads. prefer letting it be private. till again, ill be missing all my frens! *huggs*

**even thou u cant read tis, wanna thank u. thanks for being my fren and giving this a chance. even thou it might not turn out good.

off to slack. =)

LOVE always;

2005-09-18T23:47:00.000+08:00

another month flew by. by end october, i would have ended my first semester at fashion design and haf a 2 months break! results for my first skirt done are out!

skirt front.

skirt back

well i got a Class I grade for this! which is 70-100 marks. and i think im the 2nd in class? the only guy in my class was first, he got 80. i think i got about 75?

results slip. anyways the first column says 70-100, 69- 60, 59-50 .. very blur. im so happy! =) my first skirt lehs...

well sch has been busy busy busy!! loadsa work. but easier than foundation year.. now at 2nd skirt and started with blouse last week alr. im so afraid of assessment day. 11th oct. we gotta present everything we have done for the whole semester.. scary.

well i went clubbin for the first time 2 weeks ago? on a saturday. chinablack, baby! it was fun. i loved vodka sprite, i hated bourbon coke. wk, still say nice.. the taste is damn weird!! went with michelle tay and her friends, while i brought this guy i just know. its weird for me to do such things. he still msges me and all but d'oh. hmm. i danced till my knees were hurting. michelle was such a good dancer, hot moves and all. might be some time till i go again thou. i really dont have so much energy to be dancing every week like she does :P

and she intro-ed her ex to me. cos when he was wooing her, she told me bout him and i told her to go for it cos he's quite good looking and all. turns out he is quite a gentleman. abit on the ah beng side but not like those typical ones. he smokes. but i like him. i dont noe how he feels, but its all good. we've been gg out and all. i hope it works out. has a gorgeous car and frm the airforce. and she broke up with him cos he has no time for her. depends on whether the girl understands his job thou aint it. i enjoy his company thou. let fate decide.

8th sept 05- shoppin at citylink mall, suntec, esplanade, raffles city =)

i made tiramisu the other day too. at zinc's house. 2 for him, one for auntie joanne, one for me, one for auntie susan. one more in e fridge. heh. too much whipped cream. shall try again another day.

29th aug 05- first time. view from koptiam opp bugis junction.

`sometimes i wonder whether it will work out. whether fate will make it happen`

29th too. bugis village. waiting for him putting parking ticket for his car. after dat watched The Maid.

TML i will ask him!! or i will not put my mind to ease. he is really nice. tml olivia said i better finish my skirt assignment tml. or she will murder me. and cancel my outing with him. cos they both haf mutual frens. dont noe each other but they are frm the same sec sch. just my luck! haha.

well. gotta slp early. can u guys see i love my motorola V3? even thou its blurry photos. i just love it SLIM, babe.

till im free and nothing to do again;

LOVE.

2005-08-14T20:48:00.000+08:00

hey... MY BLOG IS ROTTING!! xD

hmm sch has been okay. got quite a few lessons.

monday is off day.

tues is CAD class where we learn photoshop. afternoon is Marketing class and i love dat class =) .

wed is toopid pattern drafting and im DAMN lazy to do that. very very sian and diff. very lazy to even think abt it. haiss. bad bad me.

thurs is loretta's class of communications and presentational skills class. learn how to write resume, app letter for job and presenting skills. aftnoon is sewing lesson where we learn to sew those funny stuffs using those lousy machines. in the whole room of abt 40 machines, only less than 10 is speed-adjustable. the rest cant set speed and will go like thunder when u press a little bit on it. pay so much for course fees and get such lousy machines! arggh.

fri is david's drawing class. learn some drawing skills. learning how to draw flats.

well all is good. my parents bought me a $2.4k sewing machine! everyone in class thinks i got too much money to spare. all ask me donate to the "whom-ever poor pple funds". some more make me pissed is the lecturer even say "aileen, its not the machine dat matters but the person doing it that matters!" like i dunno lidat. im not so naive to think so. she's just so mean. jealous! ahaha. since i can afford it can get a better machine, den i shld.. next time if i wan resell oso worth more than those cheapo machines. 2nd hand ones are $200 to $500. but auntie joanne says they spoil easily and very noisy. need to replace some parts before u can use it. well mine is so ex cos it has an automatic thread trimmer and a panel for determining how many stitches for wadever kind of stitching u doing. ya la i may be crazy but buy already! a good investment for my future mah =)

yest queued for more than 2 hours for my new.. MOTOROLA V3!! its quite cool, very thin and sleek. functions not bad. got a free bluetooth headset and $30 HMV voucher. my mom used the vouchers to buy some teresa teng disc collection and a gwen stefani love.angel.music.baby CD! yuppp happy ^-^ but dunno how to use the headset.. gotta check it out. love my V3! just hate the #$#)*$& roadshow... queue so long, still hafta queue again to PAY.. suks!

haii haf not been meeting my bes frens. at least zinc still got call almost everyday... but shir is totally NO TIME for us! only ronald.. im so pissed abt that! >.<

anyway my classmates are all alright. except dat olivia keep calling me this name. but she feels motherly. i hope dun become very bad!! i dun wan #$(# classmates again! haha. she keeps naggin on mavis to smoke. personally i feel that its alright if u wanna smoke cos its ur choice. wadever happens is u choose to be like dat. but if ur smoke causes other to die.. its sinful! passive smokers get 400% more nicotine and other substances than the smokers themselves! dats plain inconsiderate and it chokes my airway. smoking aint gorgeous! =X so ex to maintain.. i will be broke if i ever were to start on it. ahaha.

ah well. it's been bad a little while back but i guess since im not worth it to be bothered abt, i shall move on. its been upsetting someone treats me like dat . i dun think any girl will tolerate it either. anyways. i wanna drive a car! birthdae coming soon le.. 21st aug! aft dat is a WHOLE week of term break! yayyy! the timing is so wonderful isnt it. i wanna try clubbing.. i wanna have my first drink legally! =)

loveee, aileen

2005-07-03T14:35:00.000+08:00

one moree day to sch reopen! =O

but actually my timetable has monday as my off day so i start sch on tuesday.. timetable's tues 10.30am- 3pm, wed and thurs 9-12pm, and friday 9am-2.30pm. supposedly, i guess, cos i din went down personally to see for myself, lilian just called me at 12 and told me.. supposed to go sch with michelle and ginny to check, in the end told them to help me see. my timetable is sooo much better than the other ppl who get no days off and everyday study from 9am - 3 or 5 pm. but mine is the most stressful, so kinda scared cant cope.. in the meanwhile also excited about starting school. blehh.

today just went bugis there with michelle heng. she needed to print some stuff.. woke me up at 9am!! arrghh. but she woke up late and we went out at only 10plus. haha. yest night went to fetch my grandma, so din go to that live it up concert. i wanted to go... last minute she wanted to come. haha. she even took a plane to taipei first from kaohsiung, den to singapore, altogether about 5 hours plus. the plane was slated to land at 6.55pm but we did not see her until about near 8pm!! sian. sooo long. was soo happy when i saw her.. =) now she's taking a afternoon nap. yest she snored beside me, almost cudnt slp! she told us the story of our parents yest nite too.. tell it on the blogg nex time. kinda dizzy now... so early wake up! my godma came over to visit my grandma and said that i broke my record for waking up >.< bleargh.

tonight auntie joanne is treating us to some vegetarian buffet. all my mom's frens are kinda excited that she's here, bought things for her.. the most generous one being expensive jewellery. darn it , i tell u, dat woman has loads of cash to spare. she bought me things ( a $80 bucks damn freaky silver bag from U.R.S Inc which i promptly exchanged for 3 pairs of heels. hehe.) and gave my mom tupperware, a toaster, and a pot. very generous indeed. my mom even calls her 'da-jie' (which means big sister, of cos u all noe..) and says she treat her so good, not even her own sister is as good. bad english yeah.. but i dunno how to say this properly. lazy to think. hehe.
and there's a class gathering comin on. which the organiser told me 'its a CLASS GATHERING for goodness sake'. cos i said its kinda weird or awkward, for this thing to come all of a sudden. why? cant i have my own opinions? everyone, including me, are entitled to their own opinions and feelings. as a grownup, its very immature, unkind, extremely rude and unlike of a lady to be turning off pple with their rude comments by thinking they are right, dont you think? spoil my mood. cudve told me a little nicer.. even tho prolly she almost had a fit when she saw my email and think wad the hell is aileen thinking? hahaha. does it hurt to be a little nicer, even so?? u think 'hey cmon its just a CLASS GATHERING (like i dunno how to spell or wad the meeting function was) and u shld be happy and join us but u still @#$#() say its weird or awkward? @#*& you lah, dunno how to think!!' but for me, i dont need to think like you. shirely says everyone will be just sticking to their own clique of pple and not talk ard as like in sec sch, so she's not going. alot pple agree with this. so i hafta decide. some ppl oso think BBQ is boring and smelly. hahaha. see, everyone thinks differently and as a mature person we shld respect their opinions and decisions. and not slam pple down just for not 'giving u face' or not agreeing with what you say. Be friends until so xin ku.. shld be just happy with what u're blessed. u dont get friends like boom! treausre ur relationships. talk until too far le haha! kk zipp!

but also seriously, i dont noe wads the case with acting pretty and bimbotic and mature etc. you're just you, the way u're born. enuff said, those who dont noe seriously have a weird attitude towards life. but so be it..everyone's born different and we all get pissed with diff things. *no more comments*.

ah well. update ya'all when i start sch and get to know some bitches ditsy enough for me to be angry about. i hope not, but let there be interesting and friendly ppl!

Takecareee-

2005-06-19T16:34:00.000+08:00

another month!! woosh. time flies! been workin so far, tis one month. work's been pretty okay with some days being particularly stressful when customers complain or be a terrible pain in the ass and when the money in the cashier does not tally with the records. shir stopped work with me one week or two before. she's starting work next monday already!! all the best! sch's a new exciting life but oh boy do u hate gettin up early and being stuffed with projs!! everyone from poly's been having 7 or 8 projs stuffed. and i will soon, too! sch's startin july 4th!! and i PASSED! results came back dat day when chye chun was talkin to me on msn.. i was sooo nervous! i quickly bathed wit my heart thumping like mad and quickly went down to the letterbox to take my results.. and tadah!!

note: passing mark is 40.. marks are upon 100.

drawing (pretty slack esp since firsst semester, lucky to have passed by 3 marks! lol) - 43

visual studies (i think quite stable throughout the yr?) - 62

critical studies (my bestest subj in the whole course cos i better at english and essay writing! but lost to another classmate who got 78 cos my first semester got just pass marks =( disappointed!) - 75

studio practice (alot subjs combine together.. hands-on subjs like claymaking and comp stuff like animation) - 59

grade avg - 59.75 (not bad but not as good compared to my classmates who got like 60-70.. but happy dat i pass!)

accepted into fashion design!! =)

excited to be starting this new course come july 4th.. its quite stressful i think. reknowned to be the most stressful course in the whole school! but quite exciting, i hope i can manage it well.. cant slack! hope i can cope with it.

today's father's day.. wish my daddy happy father's day! haha but no pressie.. wanted to get crabs but they say dun wan..sianzz, just when i was salivating for some! mmm. its some hawker centre near the office of my renovator at where zhiyin leaves bus 13 to change bus for going tp.. so long nv go sch forget dat place le, yummyy crabs!

nowadays been a rough patch with minnie. sianzz. and dat day just rode on wk's car.. so fun! recent dream is to learn driving and in the future own my own dream car.. something posh and a nice brand like BMW or if i ever can, Merc-Benz! Of course i must work hard for my future. but driving seems like such a scary thing. and he's a good driver! haha. first time sat a fren's car.. a new experience for me. well dats abt it.. oh and my grandma is coming to singapore! for 2 weeks.. yay! so happy .. can see my gran again! miss her muchss... altho last yr end just went taiwan. alot of things planned for her already, haha.. all my mom's frens wanna go treat her to jewellery or eating out.. gonna be here frm july 2nd to 16th. . but i start sch alr! nvm still can spend some time with her.. she'll prolly be enjoying shoppin with my mom while me and my bro are at sch! hehe. will try update when im bored!!

-takecare!

2005-05-28T16:46:00.000+08:00

hihi...long time no blog..seems like an eternal time of not writing. haha. zzz. its been one month of workin at shir's ktv at tpy CC.. learn quite alort of things and got into some trouble oso lol.. but u work to gain exposure and hafta learn to take hardships also. its been tough sometimes but a gd experience..but prolly aint gonna work for long. really tired. recently had a huge ulcer and cudnt eat much..felt so terrible!! cos din slp enuf while working..haha...

sch's startin at the start of July..so fast hafta study! worried abt how fashion design is going to be like, worried abt my #*$&# results and worried i got pass anot... if fail cannot go to my 2nd year... arrgghh.

recently keep seeing loads of love stories. not just plain soppy happy ending ones, just some stories abt love and pple write abt wad they seek in love. when will we find our other half who will sooth our soul when we are hurt? who will b there for us when we're upset and angry? who will be there always to share ur happiness and go thru life with u? life's too short to be thinkin so much. why society places so much on appearance and sexual compatibility? why do we seek handsome and pretty sexy pple when all we really want is a soulmate? why care abt so many things ... when u noe u shldnt care, just becos society values make u care so much, abt appearances and all. wads the value of love?? saddd. when will i be truely appreciated and when can i not tink soo much.. dilemna. single life is good, but there will be times when u think wad am i doing here? without someone to share it with? haiii. just a thought ive been vexing abt . will update soon.. hehe. takecare ya'all. tag my board leh. lol.

love, me.

2005-05-01T11:21:00.000+08:00

zzz. holidays just about one week or so.. really not used to slacking so much..haha. for this past 5 mths or so everyone was so stressed with projects... after all the major ones were finished really not used to slacking, keep feeling 'shldnt i haf work to do?' lol.. luckily next tues gg to shir's place to work. $300 per mth, i suppose. im just happy to haf money (aft all i owe alot pple diff things.. *paiseh*) and also can buy my 'the aviator' dvd!! =D its coming out end-may in america. dunno when it will reach singapore thou. no worries, mich's mom, who's working at Alliance Entertainment who is the official distributor of Warner Bros movies, will know first hand when it comes out!! den can ask her to buy first.. lol. lookin forward to the dvd extras. seen on the internet it got a howard hughes biography and deleted scenes too. da effects are so nice... wunnerful to see them recreate history again using high technology..

been reading and re-reading my howard hughes biography. The Untold Story and Hughes: The private memos, diaries and letters by Richard Hack. They complement each other well. The latter is more for strict historical events while The Untold Story goes towards details of his life, with the numerous loves of his life. greatest of all, his love for aviaton, or else we wudnt be so advanced now. so courageous and brave, taking on the sky... as one of the score titles in the aviator score cd, "there is no great genius without some form of madness". Applies to those great pple like Einstein. haha.. i feel alot for this great man who died such a tragic death (neglect by his aides in a hotel room). i got some of his old photos from corbis, and they were nice... i like history. =))

blah, now i got the Girl by Destiny's Child song, and He Wasn't by Avril thru the 'generous' Darren.. wah i rmb until now, keep sayin he's free labour for me, this cheap labour (referring to my work stint, lol). sian leh.. zzzz. now listening to my fav songs... such as Cyndi's Di Yi Ci Ai De Ren (The Day U Went Away by M2M originally).... very meaningful , also very teenagy, haha. and jolin's songs...

hmmm abt r/s. i just feel dat if there is no strong chemistry and feelings, i dun wan to be in a r/s for now... really, a 'waste' of emotions.. just feel i dun haf dat excess to be pining and whining and loving and fighting someone, no matter if there is dat someone or not. even if i like someone, hafta see i haf that strong strong love for him, or else, dun waste time.. depends on fate, i believe of love.but love will nv be lost, it will just be kept in da heart. blehh wad am i doin.. haha...

been quarrelling with parents of sort recently. dat day just got chased out of house got me and my bro bleddy wont throw this dead lizard away, and my dad absolutely insisted we must, or out of the hse. we were crying, frightened by his outburst. ill never forget that day. i hate him for being so forceful on him. he thinks he's always right..so sadistic. keep sayin wanna smear the dead lizard on us if we nv listen to him..like wad?! u are the dad here, u cannot throw? just becos u are brave and in da army, we must be like you?? dont we haf our own fears too? bleh. one fine day i will leave da hse when i can earn my own living.. for now, BEAR with this family... i wudnt ruin my future just cos of them. use them to pay my sch fees first, den when i get a job and all, muahahhaa. =/ just so angry, rather not talk abt it liao.

zzzz i end now le bah, nth else to write anyway.. sian dad wants us to keep the room tidy. sian. messy oso not his business..like he very tidy lidat. he always throw his things ard..but we cannot say him? oh, @*$#@&!!! =X

takkecaree,

2005-04-26T23:45:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. HOLIDAYS now already!! finally 2 mths of rest after more than 5 months of sch non-stop.. finished up animation, balik kampung 2.5m x 1.5m project and wearable art project FINALLY..it seems like we're nvr gonna get our break haha, den now suddenly can slack and nott think of any proj seems just incrediculous. lol. all our grp projs din get selected to be in gallery..sian, cos others are more artistic.. its actually towards advantages of team members..got some pple le den got good ideas and good leadership. sian talkin of projs...

first day of holis. went out whole day since 3pm.. first went with my ai ren michelle to bugis, meet her and go ard bugis village for awhile. she bought some stuff den visit her old work place. off i went to meet darren aft his exam at sg shoppin centre where he was playin pool. was very nervous. found out he's sucha....big guy. wahahaha. den he gg home, i ask zinc out since she wanna go chinatown, so we went there.. zinc got mad and bought 4 cheap chinese cds from china de, haha.. got cyndi, david tao, JJ Wang Jun Jie and F.I.R. den went to orchard shop..saw samuel lee and his gf and he told me abt he and his new gf getting new couple rings...lols! den walk ard far east, wisma's topshop and taka's ice cream shop at supermarket entrance there..damn nice, esp the cookies and cream flavour. very special italian ice cream =)

well well, nth muchh for now... some frens for me are on the recline, some on the decline, i dunno wad to do or say anymore...its been kinda bad on me on the emotional side, i dunno how to see things anymore... e ppl i like dun like me, e pple i dun like will like me, hahahaha... gotta go to sch tml and take the freakin work dat nobody wants to keep.. too wasted to just throw away 3 days of work, even tho it cant be compared to other pple's. its still our work and we shld be proud of it wad... dunno wad they thinking..

love- aileen =)

new and nice song...lurvee it. suits gfs.. haha very sweet and meaningful song for girls.. will someone d/l for me? haha..

Girl - Destiny's Child

[Verse 1 Beyonce]
Take A Minute Girl Come Sit Down
And Tell Us What's Been Happening
In Your Face I Can See The Pain
Don't You Try To Convince Us That You're Happy (Yeah)
We've Seen This All Before
But He's Taking Advantage Of Your Passion
Because We've Come Too Far
For You To Feel Alone
You Don't Let Him Walk Over Your Heart
I'm Telling You

[Chorus]
Girl, I Can Tell You've Been Crying
And You Needing Someone To Talk To
Girl, I Can Tell He's Been Lying
And Pretending That He's Faithful And He Loves You
Girl, You Don't Have To Be Hiding
Don't You Be Ashamed To Say He Hurt You
I'm Your Girl, You're My Girl, We're Your Girls
Want You To Know That We Love You

[Verse 2 Kelly]
See What You All Don't Know About Him
Is I Can't Let Him Go Because He Needs Me
It Ain't Really Him It's Stress From His Job
And I Ain't Making It Easy
I Know You See Him Bugging On Me Sometimes
But I Know He Be Tired He Don't Mean It
It Gets Hard Sometimes
But I Need My Man
I Don't Think Ya'll Understand
I'm Telling You

[Chorus x2]

[Bridge Michelle]
Girl, Take A Good Look At Yourself
He Got You Going Through Hell
We Ain't Never Seen You Down Like This
What You Mean You Don't Need Our Help?
We Known Each other Too Well

2005-04-09T00:20:00.000+08:00

;; *My nostalgia* ;;

I miss yourr scent,
the oh-so-sweet ssmell of urs.
I miss the adventuress,
going ard frm town to town.
I miss having longg late trips on the train,
for with you I will be shielded from the cold windy air.
I miss your hugss & kisses,
for there is much security and comfort.
I miss having you ard,
in these times of distress and helplessness,
for there is no one else who cared as much as u did.
I miss youu so much that,
sometimes, I forget about what im supposed to be doing.
I miss you as myy bf,
becos I feel no lovee no more.
I miss youu,
but we have all gotta movee on and forget eachh otherr.
But if I ever hadd the chance to talkk to you again,
I wanna say thankk you for once being a part of myy life.
For the memoriess will stay withh me
like the etchingg of a tattoo on one's mind.
And theree goes;
myy nostalgia.

Thrownn off into the far end of my heartt,
where u once belonged.

-byy aileenn hoonn jp 7th-9th April 2005-

haha, are u thinking that im still obsessed with him? Nah, suddenly had a thinking abt making a poem abt him, so I did. It isnt very poetic but at least it conveys my feelings well. not so good at literature ahaha. thought of it becos sch recently has been very stress, den *read last post* very moody and all, feeling no love and concern from pple ard me at all. yes, im honest. am i expecting pple to just come over whenever i want? nah. but its just the sense of loneliness, when u need someone to cheer u up and be there for u no matter wad, no matter the bf. sian talking abt this. hope u all enjoy this piece of poem I thought up over the bus trips home haha.

Recently was doin board game proj. sian and quite hectic, esp for those who are working part-time. (sian excuse as one of my frens at sch keep using that, and my view is dat without focusing on sch, work the hell for that much of a money, in the end sch-work will be neglected and ur skills wont be dat good cos u no energy to listen to class. ya?) in the end during talk with teacher they say our graphics is the worst in class. yes i agree but to a certain extent only wad. this standard is wad we can manage, if they think they can do a much more cheem design den go ahead. kinda bu shuang with that cos i din slack or wad, i did my part for this proj liao, furthurmore muz keep with our target age grp of age 8 and above, so chim design i dunno how to do. ltr i ask my grp leader whether she really feels that way and she say nt really lah, is the measurements and dimensions for the design den is not good. im in charge of the packaging (will show ya'all when i got photos alr, very cool game haha, the concept is mine okay! *keeps harpin on dat and it makes my grpmates feel like pissed off? heh* hope da game wont land into the teacher's hands..i wanna keep loh! who wud wanna throw their time and effort into a teacher's hands who just in charge of telling u wad to do?! very pek chek cos my time management like siao de, alot proj haven finish and no one wants to help me loh! o.O feeling very down. i hope things go better or im gonna go CRAZY.

alot alot alot of STRESS. and i got into FASHION DESIGN!! yayy. very pleased and darn relieved with it. now damn worried for my foundation year can pass anot, cos i haf really alot of projs haven done, and next week is the LAST WEEK OF YEAR ONE!! wootttt. finally a long-awaited 2 months break. trying hard to find a part-time work. any recommendations? i wanna work with shir at her papa ktv!! haha easy money and cos i kinda noe how things work liao wad, den no need go job hunt alr lol. sian, very stresssed. things arent going well with darren either, i think we make each other pek chek ALOT. i can sense it, even tho he says no everytime. why else wud our frenship detoriate so much? we used to talk everyday, and now its zero! haiii. why is my life turning upside down, all of a sudden, memories comin back, having more distress and hurt....

-If We Hold On Together - Disney's "The Land Before Time" song, damn nice, courtesy of Director Lee Whee Hong haha.

*hugs* NO ONE READS MY BLOG! =/

2005-04-02T17:57:00.000+08:00

Well so long din block..kinda lots of interesting things to talk abt..but not really got time to go blogger and post, so i did it on wordpad first..hehehe.

TUESDAY, March 29th

Went to Pulau Ubin for a drawing trip..a group project based on the kampung life there...each grp has to produce a piece of work 1.5m x 2.5m BIG... so all of us went and met at tampines MRT first. well zinc goes to TP everyday so I asked her early in the morning how to go...haha disturb her slp...zinc who ask u slp so late hah!!! ahhaaha..woke at a freaking 6.30AM. took 13 and 23 and met them there. grabbed a Egg McMuffin cos i din haf any breakfast. den took bus 29 with 16 pple (some were alr there and some slackers who dun come to sch). sat on a bumper boat with 11 other pple (it only takes 12) and off we went. we started to get rreaalllyy crazy and started to scream and run all about cos its reall fun..some stood at the back of the boat where u cud feel the wind...den started taking grp photos. abt 5 mins or so reach alr. got our bicycles and each grp went our seperate ways. i wasnt a grp with my frens but with a sri lankan or indian called mudith..chinaman called Liu Heng.. and fellow girlmates Michelle and Ginny. took quite a few photos of the old kampung huts before it started RAINING and we were all drenched and wet!! the tyres splattered wet mud onto my back!! my tee was white and it looked DISASTROUS. had lunch at one of the kopitiam there.. like any kopitiam in sg loh...sell those hokkien mee stuff, but quite ex lah, everything is more than $3. the drinks $1.10!! went back in a dizzy state cos the boat was bopping down and up like mad. had a hot shower bath and slpt for 2 hrs before going back to sch for extra Visual studies class again. SIAN.

WED. march 30th.

nothing much lah, dun rmb liao..oh ya, go sch at 1pm for studio practice class, did my foam...we haf to shape and style a foam into a 'statue' lidat loh...its a transformation of the seed we have done in clay...but my clay BROKE in half!!! sian. yarh, had my fashion design interview...we had 5 ops of courses we wanna major into, and my 1st op was FD, 2nd was Arts Management.. it went pretty okay. i was quite nervous lah, had to take a cab to sch cos it was simply TOO heavy. (brought my O's Fashion, my Sec Sch portfolio, my foundation yr portfolio and my Fashion for foundation yr.) And dragged it home aft sch...simply too heavy the plastic Art Friend bag was totally stretching!!! crashed down on the bed immediately..all energy gone. the lecturer who interviewed me, i guess, was the programme leader for FD and Fashion Management. they gave me this slip which everyone got, to attend 2 fashion shows of Graduating Classes...every year oso lidat de, to gain experience on hosting a fashion show. one at Parkview Sq and the other at ZOUK. oh gosh i hope i can get into FD!!! i wanna go! ahaha. a definate eye-opener.

THURS. March 31st

nth much. went to lilian's house to do board game proj. #*&$#(* proj! lol but very proud of it, just like my teammates. the IDEA was MINE okay! and the idea of making the background a map of taipei to represent the steps on taipei as thou as we are searching ard the city for clues. (game had to be based on a news report abt a boy, aft being kidnapped by a man in taipei, rmb the place he was kept in and led police to the man's arrest. its basically a memory strategic game.) ahahaha. showoff sia. but really, proud of it. at least its not some weirdo stepping style other grps from other classes came up with. o.O

FRIDAY. April 1st

fukin piece of @*&@#@. i lost my hp. may whoever took it be cursed and haf bad luck #$(#*$)#. heh. one of the worst days of my life.. found the hp missing aft class at the bus stop opposite sch. so went back and found lecturer for key to class since i thot i left it in class, which is the last time i saw it. but din find..was so panicky. since it was April 1st I had hoped that my classmates had took it for fun. but NO. the hp was OFF. after some hesistation decided to tell my parents. they scolded me.. i explain that i din lose it intentionally in an effort to stop their scolding. but my dad said " u stupid idiot! who wud say that they intentionally lose their hp?? huh who so stupid!" wah lau like wad did i do..saying im stupid means their stupid for giving birth to such a stupid daughter. den my mom refused to buy a new fone for me. i cried so much yest. i felt like there was no love in the family. and no one cared. i cried like there was no end. i really loved my fone no. NO WAY was i gonna give up my no. (which i picked MYSELF. din noe it at first but it was actually a composition of my birthdate..and the no.s 69. lol.) which i loved. i really cried and felt so painful emotionally..kanna scolded by parents like i was some stupid idiot. did i want to lose the phone? aft alot of thinking there was only 2 possibility: i left it in class, which perhaps my classmates took (hope not) and the other was that i dropped it along the way. cannot be drop de rite...got sound one loh when it drop rite. might be classmates take de but i HOPE its not them. sian..really very bad..

SAT. April 2nd

today went out with parents to Singtel Hello Shop at Orchard. went with one of my mom's fren and her son.. a real AUNTIE. talk like in the market, veryy loud. was so damn pissed with my mom. treated her frens so well and to me, her daughter, so bad...she even go hold her fren's hand and yet din care abt me walking behind. i went up to hold hers but later shook it off, very disgusted at things. why shld i be loving and friendly to her when she doesnt treat me right? den she bought a 7260 after much discussion, for $400+ at original price, even tho its selling for only $100+ with plan. sian. she dun allow me to use it. says i will possibly lose it again, cos its a fukin $400. den i hafta use her old crappy fone, which i told everybody that it types out ABBCC when i wanna type ABC. sian. very frustrated with the phone, its only good for talking. got a bleddy fuking slap from my dad in the car RIGHT in FRONt of that auntie. wah lau. lost all face. like wtf. just cos i was defending myself. scolded my mom alot things la, i told her to shutup cos she just keep harping the fact that her plan is due on november then can change hp liao....wah lau. fuk them. i feel so unfairly treated. like im just a load of rebellish rubbish that talks back no matter whad, a stupid idiot who dunno how to talk. yes. im stupid. bleddy stupid. fukin depressed now. i realise that my frens dun care. really dont. like im just nothing lah. im really nothing. im just rubbish rite. fuk. fuking depressed. i wish i cud play the drums, to vent my frustration and anger. why do my frens not care? too busy with their lives? well lets just see how many pple turns up at my funeral. in future.

IN DEPRESSION AND ANGER.

2005-03-26T14:50:00.000+08:00

Ohayo! its's been darn long since i last blogged. been wanting to get a new layout and haf been trying them out... i dont use Internet Explorer anymore cos of the risks, Mozilla Firefox is better, got anti-popup or sumthin...so go get it!! haha. But that makes most templates from blogskins.com unusable cos they work for IE...when viewed on firefox it goes weird! blehzz.

well sch for me has been quite hectic, esp now is the end of Foundation Yr! Opted to go for Fashion Design even tho lotsa pple were telling me abt the future jobs...yeah i noe Fashion D has not alot of recognition within SG but as my fellow classmate who is going to FD..u muz haf the willingness to struggle cos its for ur interest!! 2nd op was Fashion Management and den Arts Managment.. i din really like them becos of the need to learn maths stuff!! arrgh. that turns me off. my interview is next wed...wish me luck!! >.< so nervoussss.

den, got loads of proj...been slpin late and the need to slp ALOT..i dunno why. get reallyy tired. hectic loh as I said...but our holiday coming..from mid april to end june until year 1 starts.. next tues need to go PULAU UBIN to do this proj on the kampungs there.. a grp proj that muz produce a 1.5 x 2.5 m piece of work, the best in class get to be shown at a gallery or a show?
so its good exposure and a nice certificate for portfolio if we do well..dunno my grp leh..the teacher chose my girl pals all in one grp; den me and another girl in another grp with a Indian, China guy and a Sri Lankan. weird rite cos im not close to them..haha.. den gotta do my major essay on Hindu temple. i think our presentation din go really well. but at least i got fluent. wahahhaa. so nervous at first..heart kept pounding. den got clay seed, wire mask, dotting of landscape...sian ah!!!!! also designing a board game based on a newspaper report....

oh yarhhh. and met up with my old pri sch best fren..she added me and Shir on Friendster. During Pri Sch she and Shir we best frens first...i think my best pal at that time was AiLin? hehe. den dunno how i got in to them (maybe cos we live very close to each other in Bishan?) den 3 of us were best frens in the last 2 years of Pri sch...we always together but when me and Shir got posted to Express Stream in Sec sch and she to Normal Acad...we kinda stopped talking altogether. so we chatted on msn thereafter and met up the next day. lol. and bleddy hell she smokes!! haha. and told me she had a SON! oh goshhh. hahaha so long no see and so many things happen... so now me and shir consider her son's Ah Yi liao!! lol...but din go her son's bd on friday cos no time :P hehe..will post the photo we took soon!! =) her name? Serene Quekkkk! :P

and becos of the stressful board game design, I've been going to my grpmate's houses for past week? also each wed aft sch goto Bras basah's McDonalds to do proj...everyday 12am den get home!! but this sunday they are coming to my hse!! so fun..i look forward to it even tho Lilian's gonna scold me for not doing work cos i'll be doing other things muahahahaa. =P oh yarhh, took alot of photos, i posted some on Friendster alr..went to the Earl Lu Gallery at sch and take photos with the exhibitions like siao. ahaha. and yah gonna force darren come! bleddy hell, go taiwan liao come back nv tell me, nv buy anything oso...sian :P but now got chewing gumm from m'laysia. ahahaha. been talking to him frequently at nite till late.. talking crap talking ghost, my entertainment ahahahaha. =)

siannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.

la la la la la la la la. sianzzz. try to update soon kk...muz try do work...ltr pple keep thinkin im slacker, everything i do oso say i slack...i hate stereotyping. and i wanna go to the SIngapore Fashion Festival!! all the tix are @#(* given out. shyttt. i wanna go see the Nokia Distinctly Bold Designer Show, got John Galliano... and The Link show..got Chloe. and the Mercedes Benz Fashion Awards. luckily next thurs got show is for straits times reader..100 seats...at 1pm, muz try go. hahaha. kk..wish me luck for everythin...really need alot of care and concern and love and hugs..cos im CRASHIN DOWN. cant wait for holidays. ahahaha. meanwhile...

wit love, takcaree my frens =)

2005-03-04T18:47:00.000+08:00

-sat 5th march-
Hello...these few weeks been as normal and boringg. went wit Mich to orchard to take photos for her proj of Singapore-theme on Wednesday aft sch? den had dinner at this nice restaurant/cafe at cineleisure 2nd floor...its the area thats now closed off and u haf to walk one big ard to get to the escalator/lift upstairs...wad a cheapp trick!! haha...i think its called maestro bistro? walking one big round wud mean u gotta walk pass all the shops..wanna increase sales la! lol. mich had salmon neapolitian(duno wad spellin) pasta and i had artic prawn pasta. side orders of artic prawn salad and one mocha mash wit whipped cream. the prawns are damn nice, pretty transulent, not the hard-to-bite kind..and its small and very tender. yummm! the pasta is nice too. normally its like $8+ for that salad?! and ard $12 for the pasta. but its 1-for-1 offer at that day for 6pm-9pm...i would absolutely not spend that much money for those small plates!!! lol. lucky we 50% off and we shared so its okay..

den todae went out with shir and zinc for some girl-bonding since 3 of us haven't had time to meet up since shir got busy with her ktv, me with projs and zinc with sch and exams.. so i think its neccessary to at least meet up and keep up with things that are happening with us before we drift furthur and furthur apart. went to cafe cartel at J8 and ordered this big seafood platter for 3 persons@38+?, and soup and iced peach tea for $3.90 each. the seafood platter was okay la, calamari was the best and the prawns totally suk..dry with no taste!! come to think of it cartel isnt that great huh...but their wasabi cream is totally delicious. i love it, wonder where can buy..haha... so aftwards shir left at 3+ to meet her bf, den me and zinc went upstairs to watson's, thinking we cud go visit my myanmese fren who was working there. but she took early leave! sian! haha. den j8 so boring, we decided on a whim to go AMK to visit pirated cd shop..ahaha...took bus 13 (went by his house, so mani memories >.<) and went to amk library to shun bian to my research on our design of a board game..and saw MISS QUEK!! haha ya..she treat us to Jack's Place wor!!! so good! i thot she was kidding! den she allow me to order ESCARGOTS! my fav...(memories of him again, v-day last yr -_-)..but din taste as good as that time lah. dunno why. den we all shared a banana split, honeydew juice, orange juice, mango cake and blackforest cake. funny miss quek, she always very lame and diao de...alot of cold jokes la. haha. i keep telling her 'u too stress isit?' heh. den she told me and zinc abt school, abt leslie who visited her that day...say alot of jokes...den we go visit the pirated cd shop. she stand SO Far away loh! cos teacher mah...she is setting good example lol. so we go in see see..cos zinc wanted to see whether got the Sims 2. too ex la ($6 got ex meh? 'internet download free de ok!"--zinc, lol) , so awhile we go out le, dun wan miss quek wait so long.. den we went home le. by the way we intending to haf buffet steamboat at one of their hawker centre there..$11 for adult...looks quite nice la. heh.

ahh sian. yest i had this weird drreamm where i dreamt that my mom had passed away...*choy!* touchwood!! haha, but i was so upset in my dream..dun really rmb any scenes but it was kinda a 'speech' dream.. woke up crying like a fountain. ahhaa. the last sentence was 'i wudnt mind you scolding me..as long as u come back alive!! waaaaa!'. i think i was practically bawling and crying in the dream. so shocked and sad when i suddenly awoke......

-cont on sundae march 6th-

well there have been loads of projs to do lately, and im quite a slacker (as many of u all noe..), so im quite sian and dun like so many proj. yes i've gotten used to the intensity and rushing of everything as this is wadd the real world is doing.. these 2 days i had slpt for 12 hrs straight each!! thats scary...like i very very tired lidat..i dont noe why like that??

also, been feeling mixed up and confused and lonely..seems like some guys haf gd feelings towards me but im always afraid. not really like me as wanna jio and all those shyt la. heckk sia. hahaa. i dont like them, but when it comes to the one i like, the person dun like me de!! wad to do....my looks are so average...even tho 'inner beauty's what matters'..who wud want a bland looking parter? who can really look deep inside a person and love them for their character without being in love with their looks first?! who can see the emotional me beneath my skin? i don't dare to confess for that wud change things. and that guy might laugh? dunno leh lol...recently r/s seems troublesome (by influence of him) and alot of emotions involved..but then i miss the good things. haiya why think so much rite? wadever comes, will come..just hope that guys all ard will see pple as wad they are, not wad they look like..how long can looks last?! i always see our parents' generation pple..when young so skinny and handsome looking..but old alr, all fat and bulging..will u still love that person aft growing like that?! heh. lets finish my rant by saying....i hope things will turn out well la. dun wanna get so tied up and waste my feelings.

lalalalalala....just spend all my angbao money. lol. takecaree pple and SIGN MY GUESTBOOK LEH!! damn blank u noe. ahaha. see ya.

Love, aileen.neelia@gmail.com (moi new email!! hehe)

2005-02-11T14:44:00.000+08:00

Taking photo with julieee from my class..she's myanmese, dunno how to spell alr. hehe. taken near entrance to lasalle-sia at the fountain that pees -___-

Taken at another fountain at HDB estate opposite school..go there sometimes to print stuff.

Taken at the HDB estate also, only this is just across the road, behind the bus stop where i take my bus home..quite nice ah. but there is old people's estate...quite old.

My painting that I did and i got Class II (approx 80 marks or so?). but not so gd among my class, alot pple get Class I! =(

Taken at home. hehehe. look quite fat ah, my face..in all these fotos..sian!!!

thats all for now... =P

2005-02-06T22:02:00.000+08:00

Lalalala...another day liao...ong long story sia..that day my momma says dun wanna host new yr party at our hse..now got again..cos i scold her when she say 'they dun call oso nvm, dun celebrate loh..anyway third day of new year got ur papa's army new year dinner.." den i was SO DARN pissed. how can new year be like this...not celebration?! im not that angmoh yet. im kinda traditional at heart, with a few exceptions of course, but not this!! i told her say since she want it this way...forget it about chinese customs of being fifial and etc...so long since our house hosted one (the last one was in 199-) and i wanna show off my artwork ahahaha! nolah, relatives come over..no need travel all the way to their houses in everywhere over sg...so far!! yay..so happy..was spending the day cleaning up my darn room and house..past few weeks was painting the 3 rooms in our house..kanna lots of paint on my hair, and it made me look like a old woman.. -____-"" ahahahaha...but so nice to celebrate the chi new year in a rowdy and happy paaarrrtieeee!!!!! wootttt.

was sick 2 days ago on friday...woke up and felt bad..cos i had a sore throat and flu..which wasnt really bad but i din wanna go to sch so i skipped it...rest at home to recuperate..and woke up in cold sweat!! After a day of medicine and sleep and rest it was okay le..guess all the work i did in the week made me weaker and more prone to the germs ard...sian!!! made me think of him again..cos no one care abt me...my family laaa! my mama..ask her come home say she busy..in the end eat lunch at 4+...ahaha..den if got bf can concern and care abt each other...haiii....guess this kinda feeling is jus natural. hehehe.

den yest went shoooooppingg with mich heng and family..so cool!! went to great world city first cos her mom sent us there on their new car (nice!) and just ate yoshinoya. mich bought a zara top that was pretty ordinary but yeah...ok la, a row of buttons at the side of the collar area. suggested green to complement her skin tone. im a fashion pro now..wahahhaa...lurvee shoopin more than ever. went to orchard next and shopped topshop, roxy (cos fiona heng wanted to) and Forever 21. 4Ever 21 is like going worse and worser...before this it was chic-cool and hip, now its so...pasar malam standard. when we went it there was just this foul smell. i dont know wad, and im not interested. thought there might be some delicious smackin' clothes like the other times i saw before going to taiwan..but its all grown up stuff! simple clothes that u can buy at other stores for a cheaper price...sian. bad shop! gone worst. hahaha. too bad..that pink tartan skirt i loved so badly was all-sold! next i bought a topshop undies for $7.80..fiona bought 3 and since buy 2 , 20% off..got to save on $1.80, ahahaa! it says 'Hells Belles', harley davidson-inspired..so cool rite!! i loved it instantly becos its like "The Aviator" movie...Howard Hughes' movie is called Hell's Angels..it wud be better if it were called that but still...Cool. =)

aaahhh. update ya'all soon. haf a happy chi new year and a good 'Rooster' year ahead!!! GONG XI FA CAI!!!

--my dream;;-to design the dresses for the women whom the guys are gonna flirt with, and they're gonna fall into their trap willingly.--

2005-01-29T23:25:00.000+08:00

Well..hello again!! long time since i updated..was surfin thru http://xiaxue.blogspot.com when i saw that she was nominated for a Bloggie award! Wow..den i went to see the contestants' blogs under the 'Best Food Blog' Section..wow..got so many blogs who give such cool recipes! looking at the recipes made me drool... hehehee. Since we're on the topic of food, I shall present a recipe (passed from Michelle Heng!) that I love! It contains a food I've never seen any recipe book feature or hear anyone else say they've eaten this.....TOPSHELL! Simply marvelous seafood found in any supermarket in the canfood section. Mmmm...it's great for a tv snack or sumthin u can make when u're just hungry all of a sudden. Easy to make with no cooking done! Here goes:

(C) TOPSHELL SALAD (C)

The ingredients are one can of topshell, one or two red onions, small red chillis (those u can buy in one pack in the supermarket), lime and salt to flavour.

1) First, take out topshell from the can and rinse with water. Cut up into small pieces (your own preference) and put into bowl.

2) Slice onions into thin strips or small chunks (own preference, but i prefer thin strips to be taken along with one piece of topshell for that crunchiness against the tenderness of the topshell) and place into bowl.

3) Slice chili into small pieces ( dont put the seeds in if you cant take too much hotness), approximately 2 chilli for one can of topshell. Put into bowl too. Stir everythin.

4) Slice lime into half and squeeze juice out into bowl. Stir again. Add salt if you find it not flavourful enough, but I love it without salt. Michelle puts salt. Ewww! hahahaha.

And there u have it!!

(Be nice enuf to ask for permission to reproduce or copy above recipe! Please mention website and name if you mention it, thanks alot.)

A nice dish, simply divine and easy to make, no fuss.. Hope you will like the dish, whoever that tries this ( not much pple read my blog thou! ) Everythin can be done in ur preference..topshell can be fried (with garlic) too! Very nice...i drool at just talkin about it. I got my mom to replenish the stock of topshell cans just one day ago! hahahaha. PLEASE tell me how it goes if u ever do it! Go to my guestbook ( below my friends links) or email me at cheeky2108@hotmail.com!!

And speakin of topshell, big bad bias zinc came to my house (aft a LONG LONG time of not coming over) to do work with me..she do hers and i do mine. Before that i went to the tpy library to research that freaking essay about the artwork 'Starry Night' by Vincent Van Gogh..the lib got so little.. useless books on him!! how come so much Leonardo Da Vinci, so many Gaughin, Picasso but just no Van Gogh!! Arrgh. Decided to research on him becos of Miss Quek, my secondary sch art teacher. She mentioned Starry Night and its history and it left an impression on me. After borrowing one pathetic book on Gaughin (just cos of that 2 pages of Van Gogh's biography, cos they are friends), and returning my 3 books on colour theory and 1 overdue biography on Katharine Hepburn (undoubtly to see if she mentions Howard Hughes, which she did for like 6 or 8 pages! yay!!), I went to Shir's ktv after buying bubble milk tea for her and chilli & lime for my topshell.

stayed there till 3 and went home to a waiting zhiyin at the bus stop. went to my block and saw my curly haired momma and she shouted at me to go auntie joanne's shop opposite my house at the marketplace to take glutinous rice and dessert made by auntie joanne's mom. YUmmyyy!! mmm! saw auntie jo's half-sister's baby...he shitted while i was there with zinc and i cud hear the POooPpp in his pampers. yuck! but his expression was so adorable! haha..cute! zinc says dun be so happy, ill be darn angry if my baby poops all the time and i have to change diapers everytime...haha...i want to hire zinc!! zinc, charge low low kk..dun try and 'qiao zha' money from me just cos we best frens kk! hahahhahahaha! den went home with zinc and give her a bowl of the rice and we eat together with the 'sian cai' and i went to make topshell in the kitchen while she copying notes...den we finished the topshell with my mom (lol)...shir was suppose to come over to try my topshell during her break but she was too busy to come. =( at 6 zinc was so tired she went home early. i proceeded to finish up my proj for Visual Studies Class on Friday..but i sense there is not enuf time! sure cannot slp tonight le..so i call shirely, ask her to buy topshell (again) but ktv closes at 11.30..supermarket close alr! sian..so i ask her come..i accompany her go 7-11 downstairs to buy tomyam instant mee, potato chips and milo ice cream! den go home eat and chiong my proj..she help me colour some den write my rationale (report)...she went home at 4!! hahahahha! had to hide when hear noise from parents' room! lol cos i sneaked her in..lol!! even thou wont be scolded cos of it..haha..

and sch's been pretty busy. got loads of proj and lots of money wasted, but boy, am i pleased with my work! i mean its not really that good compared to my classmates but its MY WORK! hahaha..and my parents decide NEW YEAR IS GONNA BE AT MY HOUSE!!! yay all my relatives coming ...sure very crowded and 're nao'!!! wooooot!! so excited at the thought! =D

and i feel like scanning my work and everythin to show u all...im proud of it even thou im kinda not good compared to my classmates. shant think of that, muz motivate to improve!! =)

well nth much for now..will update when i have the time..i took 45 mins to write this??! oh gosh.. and anyone, help me download the aviator stuff for me? haha..take care pple...

'La tristesse durera toujours' (The Sadness Will Last Forever [Dutch]) -vincent van gogh's last words..sad...

Love, Me

2005-01-16T01:43:00.000+08:00

heyy..just a short update.. well i failed my lasalle one subj...DRAWING!! well lucky thing is, the Head of Foundation Studies say as long as i make a vast improvement in this semester's results..he will pull the marks up from 35 originally to 40 marks (passing mark) so i can pass the year....thats gd and a BIG relief. i went into the mass briefing with my heart going PiMpiTy BoM!!! so nervous and scared that the head is going to murder me, cos i alr noe i confirm one of the failures..blame my laziness and for bein slacky!! now i muz CHIONG..muz pass! dun waste my one year and moneyy!! spend so much in lasalle..siao liao!!

and i watch THE AVIATOR movie dat day with mich heng.. its a movie premiere that she invited me to go with her..thanks man! its SOOOO darn nice..i immediately got fascinated with the guy they doing the movie on..Howard Hughes!! He improvised airplanes...so we can now fly all over the world!! and many inventions and things he did..like the most expensive movies ever made in that time...the numerous starlets he dated..his obssesive-complusive disorder which led pple to think he is crazyy...well u wud feel very fascinated with his life at the end of the show. 5 **STARS** i give!! hahaha..not for the history-bored pple thou. leonardo did a very good job as howard hughes..kate beckinsale as the 'man trapped in a woman's body, who can cuss and curse like a sailor but happens to be born into one of the world's most beautiful woman" Ava Gardner and Cate Blanchett as a very convincing and true portrayal of Katharine Hepburn, starlets who, among the numerous gfs he had, made the biggest impacts in his life. sooo very nice. muz watch and tell me how it went!!! =))))

and tml is the singapore vs indo match at kallang national stadium..gonna watch it on tv!!! wanted to go there and watch it..but no one can go with me!! haha..summore the tix sold out within a day...crazzyyyy man!! gonna cheer and scream at home instead. i might be a girl, but i aint a stay-home-and-sew ladyy. haha. girls shld be sporty and energetic when neccessary. =P

well..everyone is going to buy new year clothes..i dunno when im gonna buy or going to buy or not..depends on my mom...she very stingy one lahh. hahaha. ah well. so sian always....no more life!! haha..well tc and see ya soon!! =))

love, me.

2005-01-03T20:31:00.000+08:00

back again for some bloggin before i cont watchin 'top fun' on ch 8..got that weirdo freak guy frm singapore idol (but got rejected) who join the competition..and he stripped to his undies (AGAIN) and mark lee stomped out of the shooting in anger. that guy is really CRAZYYY. really attention-seeking and gone wrong in the head. hahaha. fancy doing those kinda things on national tv. pfftttt.

ah well, todae was my first day of school. so good to see my classmates again. everyone sorta changed, became prettier or dyed or rebonded or curled their hair..and me still the same!! haha. but im not the only one without change. original is good oso mah. haha. well, hair's getting long, shld snip it soon. gonna go to chapter 2 again, its value-for-money...Reds standard but half the price only @ $25. and den sumthing bad happen for me again. very paiseh for me to talk abt it here, but i jus wish circumstances were different. nowadays when i go home or go to school..i have no company, only my radio!! and its so lonely. summore the trip takes like one hour... and i get so bored and lonely...blehhhh. why lidis! lol. and last weekend went out with yufang and weiting...they are such fun pple. haha. now even thou i not their bro's gf...still kinda feel like their older sister. haha. well, jus good frens =)) we went to the temple at bugis.. last time a 'qian' i got was BAD..and that time i went out with yufang only was the exact SAME ONE!! arrgghhh!!!! means really no hope for wad i asked...and it was really no hope sia. only once i ask was 'medium'..den i gave up on asking abt 'that subject' and asked abt my studies..and once again it was BAD!! lol...suay man..muz really work hard le. =S

and ehhh...im so bored now..hahahz. well school is gonna be bored...i aint that close to my classmates at all, but im gonna try...no use being bored alone mah, muz be more sociable..as someone used to teach me to.

Love, aileen.

2004-12-27T17:29:00.000+08:00

Heyy everyone..im backk from my one month holidae trip to taiwan!! woot... spent 29 days with my gran...miss her so so much!! she cried! =( and umm..bought mostly food stuff and souveniors (dunno how to spell) for frens. and i bought 3 pairs of stripey socks right up to the knee!! so cool. but i dunno when to wear it..im afraid of looking weird in it..but i lurve those kinda socks! first day came back very not used to sg climate..haha cos taiwan is ard 20degC only..keep sweating, haha, den very tired. did alot of catching up with shir and zinc and others, miss em all so much! at nite went to mich's house to have dinner and play comp. my brother wanted to watch white chicks and so...while i was playing the comp..my bro and mich were laughing like siao outside!!

becos...white chicks got edited parts!!! its so funny, when they 3 girls came to the acting wilson sisters room, after braiding the blonde girl's hair...they took out this plastic "male's impt part" and said SHOW US UR SKILL!!! hahahahha..they throw to each other and one of them did very funny things to the plastic thingy..such as "HeadBanger" which is to bang the *#$&# on the forehead very hard, repeatedly becos "guys like it" and another is put it between the throat and squeeze it. well it might not be funny here, but if u watch it live..its so freaking funny!!

well, back to the taiwan thingy..met up with my 2 Ah Yi and their family..my cousin is married now and they have a chihuahua called XiaoMi..its sooo cutee!!!

see..at first its very very fierce...but once u get to know it better, its just a very nice dog and loves to have fun..their family come for one day only..and XiaoMi woke up at 7am when he slept at 11pm+! lol...cuteee!! made my brother pester my parents for a dog. they promised him one if he pass 3 subjs (including eng maths sci and chinese) for his PSLE.

well.. and my dad hit me once during the trip for a stupid reason i shall not say and i got 2 BIG or-cheh (black-blue marks) on my thigh..made my mom and gran scold him like siao. he sorta took his anger out on me....bleh....wateverrr.

and my mad uncle, aka my mom's elder brother, mad becos he fell down from a table when he was young. when i was eating at the table, he would get up from his chair very near the tv and stand up...and....STARE AT ME! like hell, i feel like he is so pervertic!! haha..den he will comment that i eat very slow like my younger cousin blah blah.. den once he BIT MY bro's ass! cos we supposed to go out and eat but we cont watching tv..den he like 'play play' go bite him...oh gawd we were so traumatised by that...lucky he din beat me or i scream like hell...poor piggy's ass.. his ass is so fat, so nvm larh. hahahahha!! and every night he dun brush teeth..and me and my bro saw lotsa porn in his room!! and he collects junk..his room like karang guni's storeroom! summore.. everyday he come home, he will hog the tv...no matter if we watching the tv anot, he will immediately change the channel to another one..den summore he watch cartoons or some stupid HK vampire movies that they always show..his life is so boringgg!! he doesnt have a job and lives off my older Ah Yi...every month give him $150. i heard my mom say that he went to call my elder Ah Yi everyday just to ask for money last time (cos gran is not working so cant support him rite) and they had to give him and the phone bills itself were very very ex cos he always call! siao eh..wad a useless person..but thats becos his brain gone bonkers. everyday eat one POT of food for lunch and dinner. so big appetite..and i realise he doesnt blink!! like long time blink once..and he will fall aslp while watching tv -_-"" or he will open his eyes a little only...weirdooo!!!!

enuf complaning! i 'maybe' will post photos of my trip there.. muz see mah mood! and yeh, sch is gonna start on 3rd Jan with a very hectic timetable...DIE!!! =( !! how come tertiary (forgot how to spell LOL) education is so hectic and stress..hahaz.

Takecareee!

Love, aileen~

2004-11-16T14:59:00.000+08:00

Oohhh la la...im soo sooo pissy now (not really la) but ive got stuff to rant!! ARRGGH! Firstly, my bestest fren had a phone call with a guy yest. that guy waited for her for 2 years+ and blah blah things happened, he waited for her thru all her bfs she had during the period. she said she will decide whether wanna be with him or not after O's..but he bleddy disappeared!! like no fone calls no msgs, and expected my fren to go initiate. he said he no phone and no hp..but is that all he can do? if he means to cont liking her, he can bleddy go borrow someone's hp! or wadever! or since his dad dun let him do anything or lock him in the house, he cannnot blame my fren for not waiting for him! Another guy came and he treasured her..was there any reason for her to not want that guy and keep on liking the old guy who dont contact her? that = dun care. girls cant have a bf who dont care. arrgghhh! im so so angry for her. its not her fault, and he makes it like its my fren's fault for being cheating and lieing. who said he will cont liking her? who said he wanna be with her? since no effort is made, its his problem liao. so dun come and pissy my fren! lolzzz.. she is too good alr, din explain to him in case he gets more upset and 'xiang bu kai'... summore he is a damn flirt...always present himself as a loyal and poor-thing guy..aiyoo! i keep ranting! hahaha. if i were my fren, i wud bleddy explain my stand and scold him liao!! say until its all my fren fault den he is so upset booo hoo hoo!! wud u cont liking someone if u noe how flirt is he, and he had another gf a month ago when my fren started seriously considering to be his gf liao...too bad, he missed his big chance. this is jus a misfortune, a twist of fate yeah? so pls God let him noe he muz move on liao...wah i was so sick of hearing wad my fren tell me abt wad happen haha... i felt angry for my fren, being treated this way when she was the one forced to wait in silence? how do u cont liking someone when u have no contact at all..den suddenly call and say how he miss her, how he worries how he likes her bleh bleh...? it shows to the girl wad kinda guy is he..insincere and not gentleman!! putting fault on the girl and acting all innocent. well, blame it all on urself, dude, dun come and poke my fren!! Harruummpppfff!!!

Bah, wad a loserrr rite, haha. well im mean, but thats jus my view. haha. its all over le so nvm!! well had O's during the last few weeks? only got science papers left and den go taiwan le on 26th nov coming back on xmas!! so long!! hehe.. and there is this new guy who likes me. alot. wont tell who, but he is pretty nice larh. but then feelings need to be developed on my side, so ill see how things turn out. Ahh, grown up so much. Also got other guys that i talk to, a few only, so im not so bored. i wish to have the life im dreaming of..and i always wonder, wads up with "him" liao..perhaps not reading my blog anymore, having his own fun life. i think he has changed his life..his behaviour..dun think i know him that well le.. oh well. its all good now, aileen, its alll goodd!! =P

-going to taiwan in 10 days!! woot!!!-

Love, aileen!

2004-10-26T16:43:00.000+08:00

What do people really think about you? by Raven319
Name: Aileen
Age: 17
favorite song: I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing
Parents think: You're an Angel
Strangers think: You're smart
Friends think: You talk too much
Quiz created with MemeGen!

So funny ar. its quite true!! my family thinks im so guai and all. and stranger's think im smart!! which i am! cos i will talk smartish!! wahahahahaha. and my friends think i talk too much! yarh. becos im damn bored and always like to disturb them. wahhahahaa.. so true!!

Ahhh. guess wad. yest i had a bad dream again. abt him of cos. i really really miss him. i jus cannot forget la..how... =/ its not easy at all!!! i dreamt that we were going out together. suddenly he saw his poly classmate( i think is this status la) den he was holding my hand at that time. wen he saw her, he faster let go of me and pretend that im jus a fren. den he started talking to her...den i forget liao...it was such a heartwrenching dream!! i jus feel sad. he had a gf and i was just an extra....den i dunno do wad. haiyoh, very very sad dream jiu shi le. lol. well. ive been smsing him. i hope he will reply someday. zinc and shir have both seen him ard...but i dont!! seems like he has dyed his hair brown again. and spiky hair. so he can look cool to girls, wad else...haha. oh well.......i wish it was still like last time. *bleh* anyway i gotta return a library book to lasalle, before it closes for the holidays. alot of fine to pay arh! haha. anyway i maybe gonna look thru my previous posts. see wad i wrote. hehe. well take care pple...see ya

2004-10-19T22:35:00.000+08:00

"Best I Ever Had (Grey Sky Morning)"

So you sailed away

Into a grey sky morning

Now I'm here to stay

Love can be so boring

Nothing's quite the same now

I just say your name now

[Chorus]

But it's not so bad

You're only the best I ever had

You don't want me back

You're just the best I ever had

So you stole my world

Now I'm just a phony

Remembering the girl

Leaves me down and lonely

Send it in a letter

Make yourself feel better

[Chorus]

But it's not so bad

You're only the best I ever had

You don't need me back

You're just the best I ever had

And it may take some time to

Patch me up inside

But I can't take it so I

Run away and hide

And I may find in time that

You were always right

You're always right

So you sailed away

Into a grey sky morning

Now I'm here to stay

Love can be so boring

What was it you wanted

Could it be I'm haunted

[Chorus]

But it's not so bad

You're only the best I ever had

I don't want you back

You're just the best I ever had

-The best I ever had The best I ever had-

A very beautiful and sad song =) You're the best I ever Had..

now its holidays le..gonna rush my O's for maths and science...gotta work hard!! den going back taiwan on 26th Nov and coming back on 25th Dec Christmas!!! well love u guys. Glad im finding my own way. at lasttt. but i hope not to lose a fren. well, takecare pple.

2004-10-15T13:01:00.000+08:00

Hihi...hai..been really fuked up... I suddenly feel so stupid and so used even thou i did it willingly. about him of cos again. i've made up my mind. Im really gonna forget abt him and move on with my life. its been really a waste of time. a total waste! i dun wanna put my feelings out and get hurt again u noe. but who to blame..it takes 2 hands to clap. so yeah, im gonna move on. I can do better with someone much more better. Seriously he isnt a very great bf for me, cos our views are different in some matters. so its kinda hard when he wants to pick up girls and be 'easy' while im strictly commited and never stray. And yeah, thanks for teaching me how to love, how to care..and taught me how a r/s should be. now i tink i wont control my bf like i did to him, for i now noe it can be freakin sometimes. no more turning back, aileen. u noe its not worth it, it will be a waste of time and he wont appreciate it either. oh well let him haf another gf and see how he gets to be so easy like he did with me. oh wateverrrr. its all over. now its best friend status.

oh. sch sucksssss. i din come to lasalle to be chiong-ing my proj all the time! I wish i wasnt born so lazy! den everyone wont have such a bad impression of me..and thinks im jus this slacky dun care the world girl..when im just too lazy! Lazy genes. But then, there is no one to motivate me. its all so NOT like sec sch..where there was everyone being busy and encouraging each other, helping with the answers and everythin.....sigh. guess this is all life. now im so tired, i only slp 2hours last night cos i had to rush Pat Lai's Visual Studies Project... got 65 marks for it so its kinda good..my other 3 proj marks are like 58, 59, 58 =P lousy sia hahaha. then i totally din pass up one whole proj!! sian man i hated that proj the most...the lecturer is very unclear and he just demands the thing..im so unwilling to do it so i didnt..and i was scared..i dun wan to fail lasalle. my drawing test oso..i failed that becos i din come for 3 lessons and failed another 2..sigh
so lousy sia..sian..i muz strive harder next semester..someone help me pls >.<

haha i dat day meet wif zinc and shir..then i went to promote her ktv to pple loitering outside the ktv hahaaha then got 3 customers in to book one room lol..i am good! wahhahaa. shir is SOo not a sales person lolzzzz.. i oso wont be able to deal with the mean customers like she does. lol =P

Ah well..im so bored bored bored..and all alone in the hse..i hope my future path will be clear and good in front of me soon...sigh. i really dun wish to be like tis...i dun wanna be misunderstood and being judged on just a simple action...its not fair..also, i have no one accountable too. im the brand new ME!!!! =)

Lots Of Love-
Aileen

2004-09-27T18:21:00.000+08:00

hey..todae is another new day.. another post again =) nothing's been up recently, cept for sch, projects and slacking. hehe. guess wad..that day i had to rush a project on thursday for fri's class, and i really had no wish to not sleep and do my work! i so very very much wanted to sleep! i cant be without slp u noe!! but in the end i got to finish it..and slp for only ONE hour! Bleddy ONE hour! i dun think ive ever slp for so little in my life! maybe i did it before..but...the point is, its SO TIRING!!! i got 59 marks for that project. and i wud have got better marks if not for the sketches and research which i din include. but boy, am i proud i finish and din hafta depend on one stupid MC to get me past it. Now im supposed to be doing mywork, and rushing again for wed's product design class..but bah. wish to spill my words. =)

Yest, guess wad... i went out with wk again! its been the... 4th time we been out since the first time we saw each other again aft that 3 months since we broke up. well it has been good seeing him again, but of cos feelings rush back. which ive been trying hard to reject back. and the calls came back, and it was good to talk to him again. he has been a best fren to me, even thouwe have broken up. however all his tales about girls, that girl, this girl, seriously makes me jealous and pissed. no one's better than me! wahahaa. i dun show off fake things but real ones. cos im a leo wad, leos are showoffs and proud pple. wahahhahaa. at least not arrogant, cos im showing off wad is the truth. okay back to him, yesterday he suddenly wanted to go with me to see jaime yeo and vernon A at the Perfect10 Great Lanyard Giveaway. Got our lanyards, and as we were first 50, got a Free Mcdonalds meal. which is not exactly a meal, but 3 coupons for free McChicken (cheap la!) and a free sundae and a free 50c ice cream cone. at least its better than nothing :P and also..we got Jaime Yeo's autograph!! wow..my first ever STAR AUTOGRAPH!! I asked her to sign weikun and mine's lanyard which had a card attached to it. den i talk loads to her! i said i always listen in to her show. she said 'thanks! so had u ever dedicated a song in my program?' and i said 'nah, i listen only la' haha. well she is great and friendly..at least not 'dao' like some big big big star >_<>

ltr we sat around at That CD Shop. Watching the Dirty Dancing 2 DVD. very nice executive environment there. then talked about ChinaBlack. I told him about how i wanted to spend my birthday at a club, to finally drink alcohol at a legal age. of cos not getting myself drunk la, but to enjoy the satisfaction. feelin quite adult if i go there, classsyy!- well i wont go to nightclubs and party thou, not very often at least. i prefer being high-class. like sitting ard in a high class restaurant and enjoy beer over watching the EPL match on that nice plasma TV? those sort. not those sleazy places where everyone's hands are on each other and its jus so damn noisy u cant enjoy the music, and u go out with pple littering the streets, vommiting the area and guys leading drunk & alone girls to some hotel. girls better be careful in those places, yeah? at least im self loving. heh. but i will go to some dancing clubs to enjoy sometimes la, if i get the chance, jus not to those extreme pubs as mentioned as above.

Oh later. we went to FarEast Plaza. Saw some really cool guy shoes. but he din like them. and went to eat at Ya Kun Kaya Toast..loved the place. So long since I went, and im glad it was him, cos i only went there with him only all along. But the toasts, i cant finish..its jus too much to eat at one go. Then off to walking back to orchard mrt.. den shop abit at wisma, den decided to go to cineleisure cos he dun wanna go home, and even thou my curfew is over, i wanted to pei him. so went to play the arcade. Had fun playing daytona..which he trashed a girl!!! wahahha! i still think he is the best. =) imagine..his car behind me, blocking that girl's car..and that girl wasnt very happy with being trashed.. she was there complaining to her bf! hahahaha! wk is very good, like always ive thot =) hmmm. then he play his soccer game, which he is good at again. and then to the House of Dead shooting game, where the arcade obviously wanna cheat our money..$1.5o per person! and we were dead like so fast! Pfft. den he show me his and hongwei's high score in the real soccer kicking game, where they were fourth. quite proud! hehe. after that we decided there is no more game to play. so we walk to somerset mrt, ready to go home. before that was the 7-Eleven wad, so we got the nice mash potato..MSG-laded but yumyum!! there was no place clean enuf to sit down and eat, so i said 'lets jus walk down the street and talk while eating'. then we saw GLUTTONS SQ! oh gosh wad a nice place to eat..not very nice as in posh but nice atmosphere...the food there is enormously EX! one plate of normal char kuey teow/oyster omelette or watever normal kopitiam fare is like $4 or $5..siao right. but becos of the rent la, every stall there is good! i wanna eat the stingray! mmmmm!! well me and him run out of money..so in the end had some desserts, he - ice kachang.... me- ice longan. they cheat my money sia, my longan only like 6 or 8 pieces only! after that i said its past 8.30pm le..he muz go to chicken house and collect money...so we left for the mrt. had a very bad stomach cramp along the way..den i held his arm..actually is not only that time la, is like 3/4 of the time.... he is nice to touch. bahahaha. i dunno why...but naturally, my hands feel empty when im beside him cos im alr used to touching him. so its quite comfy and gd tt i can hold him la. but not like gf/bf u noe.

hmmmm. and oh...reached home at 9.30...kanna scold by parents for breaking curfew..but goodness' sake. im like 17!!! cant i jus enjoy being out late? Grrrr, better work hard and achieve a great future, so i can move out and be independent. pls work hard, aileen!! chatted with him on the fone ltr on, where he said plenty of rubbish and made me furious..but still...he looks cute =) with nice baby hair. ^_^ thats all for now..long long post about nothing much....hope to focus well on studies man.

God Bless Everyone. Take careeee!!!

Love, a very very happy aileen.

7.51pm

2004-08-30T01:35:00.000+08:00

*ai dao cai zhi tong*

*ru guo wo men hai zai yi qi, hui shi zhe me yang?*

*wo ke yi bao ni ma? wo de bao bei, rong wo zhui hou yi ci zhe yang jiao ni*

Haha....well todae me went out again...met up with shir, hongwei, calvin, tzehoong, and *gasps* weikun! and shir's papa's ktv. well the above are some song titles/lyrics that touched my heart...cos they are all heartbreak songs, yeah. hmmm. makes me so sad... and he still looks cute to me. But he din look at me! guess there is nth left? =( but guess wad..when i sms him a gdnight msg..he replied and said 'i miss ur swt voice'. well thats swt..at least my voice dun make him puke la lol. and i really cant sing..everytime out of tune de...haha. to be honest, of cos i miss him terribly. but jus let things go their way..if there is fate, we might be back together. when i ask hongwei to gif him the bag to hold the cd cos hw got bag liao..he still say 'wah so caring huh' lolzzzz..well thats abt it. later on me and zinc had dinner with shir and her mom plus auntie..hmm..den zinc and i went back home to catch the dragon sabre and heavenly sword show on ch 8..she is fanatic over tt show...hahahaha...

well yest micheal (pesticide) treated me to dinner at Kuali (isit spelled lidat?) at suntec city to celebrate my one-week-late birthdae..haha....thanks alot! got raw salmon...roasted pork!!!... and uhh other nice delicacies...but they wont beat the one at takashimaya..wah there got oysters and prawns and crabs lor!!! *drools* :P well thnx Mic...also saw his gf...danielle...hehe =)

aiyah, i so busy with going out nowadays tt i haven even finish up my fashion...*beat myself* well muz rush rush le..i guess i go slp le ba..see u all nex time kk....and PLS SIGN MY GUESTBOOK! ITS SO EMPTY! hahahahaaha =P

well *hugs* see u all ard...take care....

-with love-

2004-08-21T20:38:00.000+08:00

Ooh La La! Todae is me birthday! wahahaa! today was SO darn funny leh. I met zinc and shir at 4pm. Well i bathed late, so i got out of the house late. Then i was opp the road when the bus came! so i chiong, got up the bus and sat down at the seat just in front of the back door. den shir jsu appear out of nowhere lor. hahaha! she said i din see her, cos i kinda messed up mah. so met zinc there, and she was in toilet making cake la. ahahaha.

then went to swenson's in J8, wah lan eh, there look like normal kopitiam lor! nothing there looks very much like a restaurant! so squeezy and small and dark! so me and shir decided to go to the one in toa payoh. then 3 of us had soup of the day(chicken..nice and slurpy!), then fish baked rice for each of us. actually wanted the milkshake, cos it looks so nice leh! still thinking of it. heh. and we ordered 2 plates of 'topless 5'. 5 diff flavours of ice cream in a bowl. we had choc chip, vanilla, strawberry, mango sorbet, and coffee. coffee and mango all gif to zinc, those flavours are so yucky! then we did 3 sadistic videos featuring the ice cream cake being stirred into a yucky sauce!!! hahaahaha! my voice was the most funny....seems like it came from happytreefriends.com! lolzzz. i had those kinda shrieking voice. hahahhaa. u muz see then u will laugh at our sadisticness.

Hmm den my bd present from them were treat from swenson's (but i paid $10) and a spiderman 2 novel!!!! yay! I love spiderman! so cool! now i have both spiderman 1 and 2 novels. cool!!!! Thanks alot guys!!! Really appreciated my birthday being so happy ^_^

well anyway yest oso went out. to shir's papa ktv with zincc. she is so big big biased!!!! go with her fren so long, and she made me stretch my nice neck out of the window of Mc to see if she came anot...bah =P and my mom says she gonna buy HP for me! but i came home and my papa got headache so say go tml...hope i will haf it. its 6610i most prolly. hafta pay my own bills thou, on my $20 a week allowance. duh?!?!?!?! what the.....

well certainly enjoyed my birthday. thanks to all u guys who wished me happy bday on MSN! hehehee. happy birthdae to me...hope everything goes smoothly. =) hope life will be better for me..i dun want to be sian always.

God Bless u all. take care. and byeeee!

-wo chun zai, zhi ying wei ni de ai- elva

2004-08-17T00:40:00.000+08:00

Lalala. me using comp secretly again. Hehehe. Been great handling a single life. Enjoy a single's freedom for now! Cos i think, teenage r/s mostly come to nothing..but yeah ill just go with whatever fate makes me wanna go. im just having this really weird feeling right now. so i came to jot it down.

:O I feel like a living dead person!! like my heart is dead. i dunno why. everything, seems to be of no interest to me, everything. is sian. sian. and more sian!! boringg! and kinda lazy to do my stuff with Lasalle! and somemore, O's are coming. darn. I dunno wat to do man. I really need some motivation, some encouragement, someone who will open my mind up and get me going on!!!!! i feel just so lazy. so so lazy....

Ah well. everything has been alright i think. lasalle is driving me almost to nuts with their projects. and the lecturers practically leave us to our own deaths. anyway i saw my classmate's friendster today, and her bf looks suspiciously like a girl. so might be butch? yyeahh haven confirm. but nth wrong with it, jus shocked, cos she looks kinda jap-kawaii kind...like alot of SG guys will jio one o_O heh. well my classmates, kinda okok lor. haiiiiii...feeling sian again. isit pms huh. hahhh.

well well. sunday, my family went together to sim lim square, to get my USB thumb drive. pretty cool. 256MB for like $60 only, cheaper than everywhere else!!! Thanks to my classmates who brought me to the shop tt day to buy the thing together. but i didnt of cos, cos not enuf $, summore no one told me they were going the day before. >< Soooo we went, after that went to IMM. kinda cool, their Giant Supermarket got live fish stock! live prawns! first time see lei. haha. i mean at IMM there lor. live prawns tastes the best man! really diff taste from frozen prawn. so nice and yummyyyyy!! and my daddy bought a webcam/microhone for us at simlim! heheehee. so ill get to talk and let my frens see. Cos i wanna talk to my friend christian. he is a pirate and i heard pirates are soo cool to shag! hahahaha!! pirates of the carribrean! or watever! lol..and of cos my frens say i am cute and sweet. not being bhb here la. i think im ugly. phsssshhhhh. haiii. *getting low again*

well well. im not even sure ill be looking forward to my birthday. its gonna be jus one normal day. and my best frens, like me, haven even planned anything. so lazy like me. haha. ahwell. i haven even finished my darn stupid projects and deadline is this week lor..die die die die!

anyway, been reading xiaxue blog recently. very attitude, very bold, very cool and funny. i like!! Go read man, her posts always make u laugh! i read the archives. now im at like October of last year..hahaha. well she is funny, dun understand the pple who make a big fuss out of watever she writes. i hate pple who try and force u to remove something from ur blog. well thats why my blog is called my freedom. my blog wat...dun like dun read, or try and hack my acct. hahaa. well well. cant believe got pple lame enuf to just pick on someone and blabber on abt wat someone write in her post. hmmpp. some pple nth better to do one la....losers!

Anyway shall update next time. how come no one asks me to update one huh..no one write my guestbook also..help me write la okayy ^_^ :P

Take care guys, and until nex time...with love...

*pssst- everyone says that bf is a girl...oh my... o_O they in friendster mah..heh.

2004-08-07T17:53:00.000+08:00

Hmmm hello pple! another new day. sch's been okok lor. been skipping a few stupid classes and not doing my homework. hahhh. too lazy . i know muz work harder la. At home, parents have been kinda stupid. and make me so stress. makes me wanna run away from home, to be independent and not listen to their rubbish. i wanna live my own life. of cos , to make that happen, i gotta work hard and make a smooth way to independence! dunno why, i feel maybe i cant make it cos im such a lazy girl. but yeah...try..go with the flow.

anyway. on friday night. I went out with my class girls to a picnic at the palawan beach at sentosa. supposed to be a class BBQ, but so many pple decided not to go. dampen our spirits! bah. so we decided to just go and haf a picnic and haf fun. so funny, i went there and be funny, act to be tourist, taking photos. so wonderful to be back there again. i was saying muz make the $3 admission worth it (i know, typical singaporean! haha) so we took the slow monorail. the bus was quite cool, got an upper level. then we ate by the beach..so many hunks *drools* haha, nolah, quite many guys were there playing soccer/ volleyball. and had many cracky jokes with wati, wheehong, Fi, Munah and Lilian. cool classmates. haha. anyway, now im having an 'affair' with wati. hahaha! cos she got a bf already. so im the mistress! haha. cos of the jokes we made la. long story. anyway i not lesbian okay! hahhaa. funny pple. as wheehong says, 'nonsense!' =P

hmmm now talkin to chris online. and mich lend me the camera, cant use. cos it keeps jamming at the 'see photos' part. it cannot take pics! haha. and fang says she gonna burn the spiderman soundtrack soon. hehhee. so excited! spidey rules!! yeaaaaa!

btw, jus to remind u guys. my birthdae's coming soon ;)
2108!!! 21st augustt!!!
aug is the best month man. cos many impt things happen on this month! like PM handover, national day, mich, fangmin, shane, and me birthday! haha. want my wishlist? anything spiderman will do. or some pwetty girly things. or a handphone 7200. or some nice clothes. or a makeover. or get me a real good art talent! hahaha.

anyway. God Bless everyone. take careee. Ill be looking out for u.

-Love-

2004-07-26T11:32:00.000+08:00

Eeekk...im testing this new thing abt the fonts on blogger..cool..ive seen it on noel's bloggie, can make big or small one. anyway u guys shld visit his blog cos he talks very funny..esp the one abt the IRC despo!! haha!!

hmm.. anyway in sch. havent been really smooth. so much work to do, and being the lazy girl i am, i always wait till last min. and i hang out with the guai pple in my class!! so its kinda embarassing that i always dun do finish my work and all that...haha. but of cos, there are also the heck care pple who like me, pass up late, skip classes and anyhow do the projects. haha. but the pple in my class, i can say they all have a certain kind of creativity. just happy to do wat i chose..even thou its kinda Stress that im doing so many things at once. haha. and my allowance, only 20 bucks lor...pathetic rite...cos i go to sch 4 times a week, eat lunch at sch only 2 times a week....my parents are very unfair and very kiam with money...grrr..

anyway, ive thought abt things...even thou its so hard to take and so shocking, i guess ive learnt to let him go slowly lor.. but he has been avoiding me and refusing to talk to me even thou he says we are still frens. does tt mean i dun even haf the right now to be his fren? hah. heck care lar..i dun care abt pple who dun treasure frenships. makes me feel like im not worth being a friend. after all these months of trying to make him happy, i think i shld deserve to be happy isnt it. as my fren say, dun let a guy waste your youth..go out there and do ur own thing!! yea...and umm. all these makes me like him, and hate him. he said once he was only playing with me the last few months, cos got sian of me...wtf right.. starting when i knew him he was the sweet and nice guy...den he changed his thinking of things and become sian of me. imagine, a 360 deg change! too shocking for me. haha. i guess i shldnt talk about him liao. he should be just a old history of mine. i just feel so unfair..so hurt..he sort of makes me scared of guys liao... dun wanna have a bf anymore hahaa....

and adele has a tamagotchi!! she say on her blog one. hehee. i had actually wanted a tamagotchi...my frens who are in a relationship are giving to their gf...i guess i wont get to have it. hah. and i wont be seeing fireworks at esplanade with my special one anymore..

i guess i have to move on with my life.. with a brand new me..

Here's a song that relates to me..

I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

'the reason' by hoobastank

2004-07-09T17:14:00.000+08:00

SIgh. THis is really hard. Im over at Shir's house today. Bloggie. it has been such a tough time for me. Sch started and everything in lasalle is all projects, drawings, pROJECTS and MORE projects!! I guess my fav lesson would be fashion design? Haha. the lecturer seems like she is only 20 but she says is 30! *shocked* Hmm and Mr Gapur's drawing lesson..photoshop lessons.. making a collage project..fashion project, Visual studies project.. if that Tony See lecturer comes back, it will be more projects!! Arrgh! The lesson times are pretty ok, not very stressed like polys or JCs but the intensity is TOO MUCH! hahhaa. I hope i can get to somewhere in life, be a very successful fashion designer.

And, life is very much alone right now. I have to adapt to a lonely life. Cos I have finally broken up with him. Haaaah. I have never imagined wad my first breakoff would be like. My whole house is full of memories of him, all his nice little gifts. I even hug his doggie prezzie for xmas last yr to slp. His reason is ridiculous. "girls are too troublesome. I prefer to be single. Quarreling with u is troublesome! Calling u, having to go out with you is mafan!" Arrgh. EVeryone would tink its a stupid reason. TOo dramatic. like see too much pi li huo? that taiwan show. hahahaa. I saw it and thot of it as rather dramatic. But i know wat the girl feel like, her guy ditching her for another girl cos she can provide him with money, fame and standard. like what shiiit?! he thinks he can bring money into the coffin. Id rather he earn his own money himself. and the girl's mom is pretty right, he is useless! But she also a little 'come and punch me' attitude. Mean Mom. Depend on girls for earning money. I would have more satisfaction earning my own money. The real world is so materialistic!!!!!!! Why have such a grown up thinking!! Hmm. I really canot bear to let him go. I told him if he is happier being single, i would let him go. But NOT when he is off flirting away with his poly classmate and having a r/s with her. Sooner or later the same thing gonna happen to her. He'd better not do that! Why are guys so bad? WHy guys like to be liek that? Complexity. Id rather think happy than being stupid thinking all the time. I still wish him happiness..hope he will get into a good university! And hopefully change his ridiculous thinking. He knows i deserve to be appreciated, cos i have nothing wrong to be blamed. I have tried to be the best i can be, the best gf for him. Loving him was the best thing ever. however, if i did anything to piss him off, pls tell me. I dun wanna commit the same mistake again. And hope he change for the better.

GOD BLESS US! Love u guys. And him. As a really good friend.

Signing off-

2004-06-27T23:50:00.000+08:00

Bahhhh. I really love him, I really do. Hope he doesnt fall in loveee with some other pretty girl at nyp. Better get to Uni!! Poly deg. is not good enuf in this society..sigh. my future?! sigh. haha. my sweetie has gotten a new hairstyle. and he dyed it brown. Like Shane..not-very-short spiky hair with brown-ess..he really looks so charming than ever. I hope no one else finds him handsome too, at least not handsome enuf to be her bf =P

See ya *hugs* Sch starting 5th July!!! :O Orientation on 29th and 30th..sucks. Lookin forward to Euro Champion Match. Wanna watch spiderman 2 SO much!!!

-my precioussss. hmm. my feelings?!-

2004-06-26T00:27:00.000+08:00

Sigh. Was feeling really upset so came here to blog. Wat the... i feel so messed up. Hmm. quite a few things happened this few days. but oso nth much. my house renovation, after the drilling and completion of the flooring, nothing much has happened alr. The floor quite nice..grey and with a cold feel.

Hmm I just talked to him finish..wasnt really supposed to be using the comp now but then i cannot help it anymore. Maybe im too obsessed with trying to make him happy. Of course it doesnt seem like it to him lah. Who will think good things about wat im doing? but i guess he thinks im too irritating liao. But what to do...i cant help it. Everyone is not perfect. This is how I am. But its with good intentions..I called him, but talked to his 2 sisters. When he took the phone, he say both of them think i am irritating..keep 'fan' them. I thought they were really nice pple..but who knows?! think i irritating den tell me straight lah. but maybe he is jus pretending to act on their behalf..but who knows. Better make it clear nex time. And after he said that, he said 'dun talk to them. and dun talk to me.' like im a pest or sumthing. got so pissed that i said bye and hung up immediately..but was feeling so bad about it afterwards le. haha. :X Hmm. that day my darling was sick. and i didnt know! i had actually met up with yufang to eat lunch at her house there...and wen i return wif her back, she tell me her kor is sick n at home..so i waited till he wake up..den take care of him.. Hmm. After that, he got ok liao.. hehe. :D Lucky. Or I will be worried sick. Im his doc..hehe

Dunno leh. Seems good seems bad? Is i worsen it de bah? But i do it with good intentions..but if everyone's good intentions are not taken with misunderstandings.. den wont have these complicated things coming out like in tv shows le!! hahahaa. why would he understand n know if all he thinks is the opposite? Hahhaa. *fake laugh* All i can do is to fake laugh..learn it from him. Everything to him is laughable. *can imagine him laughing at this* Well everyone is not perfect..but i just dun wan me & him to drift furthur, esp since we going diff polys REALLY REALLY soon... =(

Arrgh. and England lost! So damn pek chek. And my darling actually reads my blog and really laughs at them lor..he told me becos hongwei told him..and that caused me trouble. My blog is my freedom. Even thou he agrees, the way he says make it seem like he dun really mean it..and is actually threatening me to stop writing 'nonsense'. oh watever..i oso cannot help it but write in my blog..who else can i turn to? I dun wan pple to have a bad impression of him..think we are not good, or watever. Seeking solace in this blog is about what i can do...even thou i may sound love-sick but thats the way i am, and i wont be if things werent like that. im devoted okay. hahaa. okay thats about all. Hope things get better lah. what to do. im jus gonna keep trying. and hope some sense goes to him too. He is so preciousssss.. :X Aiyah, all these just a part of LIFE. Uh hmm. the end of what i wanna say...lets get back to slp (if i can later, or i keep thinking till i slp lor) Hmmmmmm. goodnight all and God Bless us!!! =)

-Hugs tightly-

2004-06-17T16:56:00.000+08:00

Today I went to a friend's blog, and saw something very true. Its about love r/s.

"a partner that never try to make sacrifices for u is not worthy of ur attention. and sacrifices do not refer to major ones like giving up his/her life or sorts. it can be giving up a minute of ur time to call ur special him/her, forsake an outing with ur frenz to look after ur sick loved one or entirely giving up clubbing for the sake of him/her. simple as it may be, but it can give him/her happiness that u could never imagine. but of cuz, the relationship will be tiring and likely would fail if only one party is making the sacrifices.

at times likely u'll look at loving couples and inevitable envy them. but ever wonder how much effort and time they had put in for the relationship to work out? of cuz, in a relationship, other than not making sacrifices, not putting in effort to make the relationship work out is also one of the reasons that a relationship would fail. and when a relationship fails, probably u'll be quick to point out that its ur partner's fault. but have u ever thought that the failure may be becuz of u? did u put enough effort? is there communication? mayb yes, mayb no.. only u have the answer.
so u're looking for a relationship, or in one, remember that sacrifices and communication are important elements in a beautiful relationship"

I believe its very important? Because in every human relationship, there has to be communication. Thats becos everyone has feelings, and its not good to bottle up feelings. Sigh. even if i shld let him go, I dont want to. Its like finding a diamond in coal. SO many bad stuff has hapenned recently. Make me see the bad side of pple. He like tt, alr good compared to them. He has a kind heart. Hmm..even thou i feel badly treated..sigh..i will still be by his side and support him in watever he do. Only scared if he likes another girl if he go poly. Haha, but im sure no girl would like the guy if he acts like a total jerk. No future with a jerk, i think. Grrr. I duno la..i just pray every time. Hope it will be the same as before..always!!

-Energy: Qing Ni Gei Wo Duo Yi Tian, Wo Hai Bu Xiang Shuo Zai Zian-

2004-06-15T15:50:00.000+08:00

Haha. Things go better, go worse...get better..then worse. Yesterday I was talking to him. Den aiyah, asking him to let me go to work with him, cos i loved the time i worked with him for a month. But he kept refusing. And i dunno wat got into me, maybe i am too mad, but i kept asking him same Q. I know sounds mad..I cried while talking to him. Cos i keep telling him all i want is to accompany him (not very near too..takes 1 hr++ to reach! but i still willing~), not to go steal his money or do stupid things wat. So very pek chek. after some other stuff that happened. Den he prolly think I went mad, keep giving me lame plans like followiing my mum wherever she goes. If she stay at home, isnt it the same? I told him i can go out with my frens too, but its just a matter of choice. Not liek I want to stick to him like mad. One day of his time is very precious larh. Haha. I really appreciate him, and im sure other guys will go 'are u sure?' if i tell dem i following my guy to work even thou its so far. Its a gd thing to guys. But he...he hates trouble, he loves flirting. So wat to do?? I think its better that he realise something himself.which may never happen. How come guys can always be alone? But at end of the day, do they lie down and think about it? Dey want to die a lonely soul?? But no matter wat i wont give up lor. Im not one to give up. But the fact that he is so precious to me doesnt matter to him. i thought its a very touching thing if he knew.. sigh.

Thurs the renovation person is coming over. To take away the tiles. will be darn noisy man! have to get out that day!! Mum says it costs 10k to get the kitchen done. we only doing kitchen. will be so damn noisy and dirty!! haha but in the end looking forward to see how it will look like. Hehe. Okay..see u bloggie..

-stressed-

2004-06-11T13:31:00.000+08:00

Oooh yay! A new blog design! From Sandstarz! She makes really funky designs. I wud have made one myself if i know how to! Hehehe. I am a shopaholic!

Hmmm. on Wed, I went out with yufang. to go shop ard for Shir's bd present. and then, went to watch Harry Potter becos she wanted to. Everyone was like rushing to see it! Haha. The movie times were like every 1/2 hr! Didnt expect it to be so nice, but real harry potter lovers think its disappointing, cos not as similar to the book and previous movies. And then went back to Yufang's hse. which is my darling's hse. and den jus play comp and at 12 ask him to send me downstairs. Then we talked about stuff till 1am! And i thought it was 2am+ alr! Haha. Was really nice and fun talking to him!

Den yest, we went out again to buy her bd present. he was kinda reluctant to go. but went. so just shop ard. bought a precious thots figurine with a crytal ball, its the 'June' one. Hehe hope she likes it. and then, it started to get sian. then he started saying wat he told his relative. and it was kinda hurtful, even thou i know he always like to say the wrong things. I felt ...bad. I know i ugly lah, but dun tell me..like that? Hai. I dunno. i will just pretend he said something wrong and forget it la. dun want to keep harping on it. forgive n forget. Hope it will get better....

Hmm. and i wanna cut my hair! its Wayyyy too long!! Maybe soon? but not at Reds. too ex for me. esp since i owe Mich 2 CDs. haha. Okay. Gtg. God Bless all! Tke care everyone.

-Praying always..hopeful..-

2004-06-08T15:43:00.000+08:00

Sheeshh, now trying hard to get this new blog design from sandstar. i hate to having upload all the pics and then to find some parts of my blog still saying 'bandwidth exceeded!' Grrrrr! Im just gonna try or maybe find a nicer blog design...

Hmm. I feel bad for my fren. That Kitch. She hacked into her priston tale game account. i wud have bashed that baZtard up in no time. Imagine, ur own bf, being in lurveee with his ex..totally ignoring ur gf. doesnt make sense? he even gave her my fren's game password..and all her avatar+160k gone! Its like being robbed. and he still can act all blur and so darn innocent. damn him. i feel like calling him or go to his hse and confront him. retribution will come man, these kinda pple. so l-a-m-e. and childish. hack ur bf-snatcher's acct as revenge? And while another girl likes ur bf..u have another bf. wth? interesting huh. dun understand these ridiculous pple!! damn idoitic..so much trouble..cant have a peaceful life.

Ahh. I went out with my darling on Sunday. I dont know why but we suddenly like before. he doesnt stand at least 1m from me now. and it was like before. so okay, thats really good...i hope it stays that way. and hope he wont be flirty! but as long it doesnt get too far im okay with it i think. im a possesive person too.. :X Sigh. Thank God things are getting better! no more dropping hair! :) Now God ...pls bless my fren..she deserves a 99% perfect guy now after all the jerks! She is my role model man. for not making a big fuss. even thou she should. who says guys only have the right to be angry? now is 21st century...girls dun stay at home and sew while their husbands beat them up and get aids outside. Rightttt. So to hell with bad pple. A peaceful life is what i want. Long live my fren!!! take care guys..until nex time.. sayonara!! :)

-Lots of Love-

2004-06-04T18:06:00.000+08:00

Sigh. so long didnt post liao. now almost dinnertime. im feeling very disappointed and upset. and i dont want to be alone, nor condemned. but wats the use if only me feel this way? haha. i become so pathetic. but again, i wont give up. i will not go away without a good fight. i am not useless. GRRR.

Again, this is my blog, its a form of typing my worries away. i have no one to turn to to say my innermost feelings. aiya, anyone wont find that easy. not easy to say it out. so im just gonna try not to stress so my hair wont all fall out again, haha. anyway hope prevails. i pray everytime then things will turn out well. i am not a bad person, and i wont be condemned as one. gonna fight all the way, even thou my tears fall and wash my face. and whoever makes the wrong choice, will haf a big regret. i wanna go punch a sandbag already. God Bless everyone n me.

-many love-

2004-05-24T15:19:00.000+08:00

Today is our 1year anniversary. I dont know but today im just feeling real stressed n depressed. i have this fear of calling him. of being rejected AGaiN. but happy anniversary to u darling! =) i hope things will turn out okay. i hope I get to ask him out. Funny, the girl asks the guy out. So many misunderstandings btw me and him. Sigh. Im just creating more and more trouble..without intentionally.

Many thanks to Mich! For helping me with my portfolio!! She said why no thanks? hahaha..so here it is! She's my benefactor :P If not for her help i wouldnt haf gotten into lasalle most prolly! *hugs*

Im so sad and scared now, zhiyin is talking to me as I write. And she is comforting me. Making me really stresss......................

2004-05-24T02:31:00.000+08:00

Hi again. I haf to say, its really not my fault and i did things according to circumstances. If only they were different. if only things were better. this has been stressing me out, depressing me, saddening me.

Few days ago (thurs, i think), i went to his house. without telling him but asking his sister. i was hoping, maybe there will be some surprise for him, and i could hang out with his sisters who are nice..cos i nv see him for long le. then! he was out watching a movie! movie without a gf! wif calvin and his colleagues from work. And watch late movie, when i go home at 11.30-ish, he was at home at abt 12 midnight. i didnt get to see him at all. but its all right. i got to talk to his sisters and stuff. i was waiting for bus then everytime will see his cousin (biao-jie) who returns home so late everyday from her hairdressing school. and she is really nice, she waits for the bus with me and chats with me. Of course, i seem pathetic and all, in front of the whole family cos im obviously being ignored here. that suks cos i dun wan them to see us being like this! And he tells me on an outing on saturday; whether i always go talk(complain) to his biao-jie etc. but she is so friendly and she is the one who was talking to me mostly. I couldnt just ignore her. i have feelings too.. and he says 'so i am the bad guy now lar. my biao-jie went to tell my mom u very poor thing wait for bus alone...' that seems really so embarrasing to me. like im a pathetic gf, stuck in the middle, with fingers pointing accusedly at me. haii dunno wat to do. dun do this, turns out bad; do this, turns out bad too! no way out to happiness! I want my happiness..im sorry if it brought some anger or unhappiness to my darling but i need comfort.. *pulls hair*

On saturday, i was out with him and hongwei and adele. went to amk for pool. i was seeming like i so sian, so bored..but u know why? cos im being ignored! my presence is unfelt. i feel invinsible. seeing hongwei so good to adele makes my heart sad. he leh, go stand directly opposite me, like making the pool table a barrier between us. thats not right!! i wanna support him. and he is really snooker king. haha, to me la! he has this charm. and he is really gd at many things. aft tt went to suntec to eat dinner with calvin and his one girl colleague. of course jealousy hits when she was talking to my darling..but it was all right la. i hope my darling will become better..no one wanna be sour and unforgiving and unhappy! =) *prays hard*

Maybe u guys read my blog le know our r/s lidat so jialat..but everyone who knows we like tt has been giving me encouragement and best wishes. Its gd to haf frens who support you. i love u guys who has been there for me!!! I wont get so depressed hopefully, or my tears will run like a river everyday! Haha. True love will always be there...its not mafan or watever shiit. cos humans will live, and as long as humans live, there will be love, hope and compassion + diff kinda human r/s.

Love all my frens and darling...all of ya pls take care!! And God Bless Us. Dun wanna be depressed anymore.

2004-05-23T15:23:00.000+08:00

Aileen Hoon spins tunes as
DJ Cheeky Fight

Get your dj name @ Quiz Me

Well love that name, but i could think of more interesting names..that website randomises the names, I got all the names ending with 'fight', so it depends on ur luck :P Haf fun with it!

Another quiz about ninja names i tried from long long ago, I got the name Unosuke Inaba -san, while my darling...Ushitora Inaba -san!!! We're same!! hahaa. (thats if i never mix both of our results together..hehe)

2004-05-19T01:26:00.000+08:00

Dear bloggy, today was yet another sad day! Went out with zhiyin and shirely today for lunch, and then with shir only to walk around J8. Stupid J8..it had to renovate so much. and took away the arcade! Make it so so sian. Hope the renovations faster finish. Shop ard there until kinda slpy and tired.

This was wat happened: I wanted to wait for my darling after his work to haf dinner with him..but he keep saying no! and he went out with calvin instead. He must haf heard him using that kinda tone and use those kinda words to talk to me! Haii. Wad to do?? I really do love him and its breaking my heart. i dun wan pple to say he is a bad bf and all, i want him to be the best bf like before but why it isnt happening? life would be easier and happier if he could forget the unhappy stuff and move on forward happily with me..sigh. I talked with shir- bf talk. We are both sad pple. haha. she has those lovey dovey messages too..but see how things turn out? its the same with me. i jus want things to be happier- life is so short..i dun wan to spend most of my days being heart broken, upset, unhappy, worried etc. u see those pple passing away, being sick of a terrible disease. the show 'la xiong la mei- spice siblings', the wen qing (jeanette aw) said that wat Wen He told her- every day is gained. we must treasure every single day we have.

And who do i want to spend it with? my family, my very loved grandma and of cos my darling!! Maybe it doesnt matter that much to him...but who would be that bothered to realise that time is always running out? who would always realise the fact that life is short and happiness is the most impt until they are old and dying? Who want to think that they will die in a few decades? Sigh. I dun wanna be like that. I wanna be happy with him. I hope God will make him realise it. Cos its really true. Haiiiiiii. I wont give up de! Hope my frens will support me. He is my first love and i dun wanna finish it. Its too precious and i really dote on him..love him..

Oh and im totally obsessed with Jolin's new CD. I want it SO bad! last time darling bought for me her last CD- Kan Wo 72 Bian- the with DVD one, worth $30+! but i no $, and he wouldnt buy for me ba..so i dream on lor. SO nice the songs! And i like Cyndi's new CD too! I like the song 'Ai Ni' and 'Yue Guang' but...those are the only nice songs! The rest are slpy songs! Hahhaa..u guys shld go buy the jolin CD!

Hmm thats it for today...God bless me and all my frens! Gimme the strength to be strong and bless my darling..Take care ya'all.

Darling, *muacks* Ai Ni! Always in hope-

2004-05-17T02:50:00.000+08:00

Ooh so long din post liao..blogger changed! Haha.. hmm many stuff happened. Guess wat?! I got into lasalle liao!!! Wooo! I was so happy when i got the reply 3 days after the interview! And i mailed back the forms for it on 12th May, 2 days before the 14th as they say. Hope they will get it..this is so wonderful~!! But cant slp at home anymore..and i haf to study too! Retaking O's too..sigh.

Hmm on saturday I went to calvin's hse along with hongwei, adele and my darling. Just see them play playstation games. Zhuang Ze came too later. Den calvin go bet soccer. Arsenal won the league!!! Next season, hope tt Man U will go back to being powerful when Rio Ferdinand comes back! Dun wan Arse-nal to be so powerful leh!! haha. and found out that Adele actually kinda nice, hope to haf more chance to talk to her! =)

And i still lurveee my darling! He always smell so nice. LOl.and things are ok-ok liao.. we arent still very close like in the past, but i hope he gimme another chance to make this love continue forever as he said that time.. -sigh~ He is my idol too! lol.

Hmm my orientation for lasalle is on 29th or 30th june, i forgot. looking forward to going to tt sch! And my darling told me Fann Wong was also from Lasalle, fashion design course!! Thats cool! I know i muz wear very cool and with lots of style when i go to sch liao...there are a lot of gorgeous hunks and beautiful babes! :P

And thats it for now..ill blog next time..take care everyone! [muacks-darling]

2004-04-26T00:47:00.000+08:00

Sigh...3 more days to my interview..i really really scared man...my drawings scared not enuf..and tt they will think im too bad to be in lasalle! arghhhh. so sia suay if i cant even get into lasalle.i dun haf any other interest in other courses..i wanna be famous n rich in the fashion world! Haha. with my skills..nah..but lasalle is definately gonna increase my skills n knowledge..

sigh. i just wanna pray for everything tt has happened..or going to happen. my interview..my darling.. sigh~ make me so depressed n worried n sad n freaked out. i dunno wat to do.. i feel so lost. i need him! i dun wanna be without him.. to me he is the best bf there ever is; for he taught me how to love. n care n to be attentive to other pple's feelings. troublesome it may be sometimes, the joy n happiness makes up for it. no human is ever complete without love! sigh sigh sigh~. i pray tt things will turn out well.. i hope i wont be tt nervous when i go interview..i pray tt he will get into the SP course.. and please God i cant lose him! =S sigh sigh..so disappointed too when i din get to see him aft all on our anniv..as so sunday...

tml haf to go to bras basah complex to get my A3 size black paper to mount my art work on. then nex few days rush my designs..colour them.. haha art isnt like maths or eng so i cant simply rush! dunno why doing art always takes SO much time n effort..lol..

kk thats all for today..*hugs all* i need someone to talk to perhaps..sigh. pls pray for me! :P Arrgh. also haf been losing a LOT of hair, prolly due to too much MSG. who ask my mom to always go out... even if its afternoon n she at home, i oso eat msg-laded stuff... sigh. i wanna grow fatter. i wish i haf a makeover so i can show pple i can be pretty! haha. but beauty within is more impt. who wants a beautiful bitch who scolds u like dirt everytime? lol. Bye pple. love u all. pls be strong no matter wat...

2004-04-24T14:29:00.000+08:00

Hi again! Hmmm.. today so bored as usual, nowhere to go. and im kinda too lazy to do my portfolio.. arrgh! someone pls 'force' me leh...haha. and im really really nervous abt the interview. im SO gonna stutter and stammer and shake! arrGh. terrible feeling im having. i wanna go pray at the temple mebbe? i dont know..im jus so scaredddd!

hmm today is me n him's 11th mth anniv. yeaaa so its not impt huh... since tt quarrel tt day he has been refusing to go out with me. but its not my fault.. it made me kinda depressed. aft all i done for him...couldnt he just forget abt it? i wanna cont to care for him.. hope ltr can at least see him lar, can see him okay liao...ill be patient watever it takes!! =) Happy anniversary to you....

now got jacky wu and another girl feeding animals in zoo..the baby tiger and orang utan are SOoo cute!! like working in zoo..even thou its stinky, but being so close with nature is a breathe-taking experience! =)

hmmm haf been dropping hair. so much! due to eating MSG stuff ba. arrgh! i dun wan become baldie.. and i wanna buy more clothes! i wanna look more pretty..aft seeing so much mags with those gorgeous clothes.. :O i really wanna be a fashion designer! so i can make my own clothes without buying them at around a few hundred bucks!

Hmm see all of u around..wish me luck..no matter in interview or r/s or normal life..lol. God Bless! Remember to preservere no matter what...nothing can bring us down. *muacks* to darling.

2004-04-20T01:14:00.000+08:00

Hmmm another new day! haf been preparing my artwork for interview with lasalle in 9 days!!! omg so fast rite? im gonna go to school this friday to see miss quek. she's gonna help me with my drawings and then teach me wat to say, how to answer their questions. arrgh really..scary! today mich came over to gimme lasalle stuff and some fashion mags. i can refer to the model's poses in there, or get some inspirations for my designs from there. spencer came!! but he din come in, only at the door for awhile..so cuteeee!

hmm...kinda depressed n sad nowadays. hongwei knows tt during our last anniv, darling and me abit unhappy things la. and he had to say out loud, like being sarcastic. and he even tells me 'tt means im better than him, cos i think anniv is impt'. since he knows that..he should tell him! and not make a joke out of it. when i first heard it i was so pissed..darling might blame me for telling him. but i only said it cos he asked me about our anniv. sigh i still think its impt..its the first time he told me im his crush. tt was sooo sweet. i dun wan it to become something bad..cos its too precious to be something bad. hongwei shld actually know my feelings..the pain..since he and his gf haf many unhappy stuff too. ill be more upset than him if anything bad happens. hmmm ill always pray things will turn out well..oso hafta pray tt my interview will shun shun li li!! hehehe. and tis month anniv hope to at least go out with him...if i stay alone at home..sigh. i really loveee him soo much! he's the love of my life, for..11 months. nex month(may) 1 yr liao....i intend to make a very special present for him! all the presents i gif him mostly hand-made..always make him touched n happy de! I like to see him smile..i dun like to fight with him at all..i always gif in to him...in the end i hope he will be happy de! ^ __ ^

Im thinking there are so many 'weird' christians around. joachim-watever priest embezzled 5.1 million. and still smiling in front of camera! guess he cant take temptation...got mistress i think? still be priest.. its gonna affect all his church-goers who look up to him. and robin from america's next top model. flashing her boobs from the window to a gay man, and then refuse to do a nude shoot cos of her 'religious beliefs'. and she has a mean-diva attitude, if u watch the show often. lol. 2 'weird' christians. but i guess its diff to follow teachings wen inside u are so rebellious? pple muz haf more determination!!

also wanna watch ENter the Phoenix. 'Da Lao Ai Mei Li' i see the ad seems very funny! so lookin forward to watching that, and van helsing? or maybe hellboy?

GUnbound..going to be golden axe liao!! woohoooo... and 50k gold..saving up for a wedding flower ba. and i was hoping to get a space helmet thingy...a round goldfish bowl on the head!! haha. but aiyah i think save up for tt wedding flower better. . .

Pls pple, sign my guestbook! haha! wish me luck..God Bless you too! Byeeee..

2004-04-17T00:48:00.000+08:00

Hiya pple. long time no see u all huh. lol. blogger was abit mad that day when i tried to update...now 12.50am le!! everyone all zzzz le.. haha. hmm im kinda nervous about my interview with lasalle. miss quek told me tt i have to appear n talk very confidentlym to convince them to accept me. prob is i have stage fright and i am not confident at all! i think pple wud know im those scary kind, not at all confident. sigh take things as they come bah..i really hope to make it to lasalle. also intend on taking O's...aft all, as frens say, when bosses see ur results oso good for u de. sigh..

its been like a few days since i've seen my boy. my baby. sigh. sooo very miss him. deep down i wish for him so much! haha... so much to tell him and wanna hug him too.

and i totally hate tt jerk. make his ex-gf pregnant. and has no time for -her- at all. wat shitty ass! says he has to take care of her. i mean why keep the child? the ex has a bf too. and jerk tells ex that -she- is the ex. wat the..?i seriously dont know wat is in his mind. he is so insane. he would get retribution for this, i tell u. he is having the best of both worlds. wat a jerk. really. -she- is such a nice girl..making all these sacrifices for jerk, and loving him even thou he is behaving like the worst guy on earth. u cant blame her if she behaves uncaring towards jerk. after all, u get wat u deserve. she'll treat u nice if u respect her and not go flirting around and having babies with other girls. seriously -she- has been too generous. ahh, the things love make u do. lol. Bless her. And hope that ex would know the truth one day. Someone should seriously knock some sense into mr. jerk!

Hmm. nothing much alr..life has been the same..boring. i hope ill get to somewhere in life. bye pple and take care..God Bless you and me... =)

<$Love Him..24.05.$>

Long Time No Blog..heehee..

2004-04-11T11:19:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone..been awhile since ive blogged now huh. kinda unhappy stuff the past few days. got scolded by daddy badly. very very bad. then got stuck at home. yesterday went to mich's hse - while she was out with char n shufang. Haha..cos we saw fiona, ida and spencer below my hse while driving past them..back to our home. so we went to find them and later went their home to play with spencer. my brother isnt sick of that dog!! Haha. Still havent keep my room. aiyah shld hack care ma..anyway no one live in tt room. hmm. maybe going out ltr ba...so sian. the weekend got waked up at like so early..my dad doesnt want me to slp until so late. but hell, i need about 10 hrs of slp everyday! den so sian..now still abit tired and dizzy. hmmm nothing else le..i confided in darling aft that father incident..was so hurt and angry that day..was only thinking abt him!! so unfair leh. hah..

anyway Lasalle emailed me!! I am going for interview on 29th April. Sooo scary! Now hafta get all my things done before that day. And practise wat to say to them. Ill prolly get all nervous as usual, and stammer and shake!!!! Hahahahaa...hope i can do my portfolio well! See ya'all..

<$Love Him..24.05.$>

Love Darling..

2004-04-04T04:50:00.000+08:00

Hehe hihi! forget post again..siann :P just played GB..now almost 5am le..*yawns* telling u abt my dearest boy..

yesterday (friday) went to his hse aft going 4 dinner and arcade. was nice chatting with him n stuff..aft tt went to eat supper liao..while eating i suddenly rmb wat my mummy say tt day aft seeing a news report on
i think rape or murder..saying i shld be more careful and say 'this is why i want u to be home by abt 10..' and then say this very dangerous..at night got bad pple..ltr get murdered or raped or watever. and then say 'better ask weikun to send u home, cos more safer for u..summore he is a boy so more not scared of bad pple(cos their stronger she means)'. so i was telling him..and i guess he agreed with my mum.. so he sent me home!! by taxi summore! hehe..normally i would go home by bus alone..cos he too lazy or wan to watch wwf..haha.. i was kinda touched tt he protecting me..hmm really scary if u're a girl returning home late alone.. perverts might be waiting out there..u never know? so best is keep onto the main road! =) thanku darling for protecting me..

another day, on thurs i think. was playing GB with friends at around 7pm+. so called darling to play, cos many of our frens like calvin n noel n shirely..plus tt childish denny and his fren. tt guy, i din know wat got into him, he scolded me. for no reason. he started it cos of wat? haha. really childish. saying i always miss..then those foul words..say i noisy. like anyone wud be pek chek. and since darling was near him, he shot gunned him..TWICE! he was dead twice!! hahaha..my sweetie is my king and my hero! hehe.. hope he will always be like tt. all girls like the sense of security..tt the guy says 'no one touch my girl!' rite? :P

hmm today he showed me a sms from an email tt says 'i cannot forget u'. then keep telling me to dun care abt it..dun care... its like how can i dun care? if i dont i can dont be his gf too. im an easy jealous and possesive type. sooo was kinda pek chek... having pms now! hahhaa. sooo very wat lor. another girl in the picture? no way! i wouldnt let any guy into our r/s. its too precious to ruin it like that. hah. just voicing my view..cos tis is MY blog.

Wee....earned my 3rd 1000g ever. easy for those pros but im not a pro. so very happy. proud of my accomplishment. aft all u get wat u earn. saw a very sicko loser in GB..scold her like siao with my frens. honestly i cant believe there are pple like tt in the world who can really haf nothing better to do and be an irritant instead. blood pressure shot up man. haha. muz always be down to earth, ya...

Okie see u all ..love him..love my frens too..*hugs* pls take care n God Bless!

2004-04-02T00:34:00.000+08:00

Hmm hihi again...forget to blog for sooo long..hehe...nowadays only stay at home play comp...from afternoon and then way into the night also...hehe. anyway cannot slp. my mum has started talking abt my private sch fees. at lasalle its abt $3000 per semester. Ex sia..summore its WITH tuition grant from MOE! so ex huh...

hmm finally got my pet!!! and i wanna go out tml..(fri)..hmm..kk gtg le..see u guys ard...

sign my guestbook hor!!! ^_^

2004-03-31T19:30:00.000+08:00

Hehe forgot to blog for 2 days again..nth much these days. yesterday go to thomson, bugis, toa payoh and J8 with zhiyin and shirely..hehe. we went to bugis intending to look at sling bags cos zinc wan..in the end never, but bought instead shorts and went to the guanyin temple there. we prayed and then 'qiu qian' or watever. u know the bunch of chopsticks in a container then u shake shake and one of them drops out? yar. said a benefactor will help me. and with effort, i can do it. Then went to tpy to borrow books. zhiyin got one week leave..then borrow SO many vcds from me. some blockbuster movies. more than 10 pokemon vcds. and 12 children story books. madness! =P then to J8 eat U-mian and play arcade. aftwards me and darling went to play tic-tac-toe at my old kindrgarten's playground hehe. Lurveee him..so sweet :D

Hmm sian man..10k more to pet-01!! woke up at 4pm today cos i slp at 4am yesterday.. :P Hmm update nex time again...see ya!!

2004-03-29T18:10:00.000+08:00

Hmmm today my bro forgot to bring his p.e. t-shirt so i went to school at 3.30 lidat to bring it to him. then he help me buy some macaroni and cup corn since i havent eat my lunch. when i was making my way back home, mich and fiona saw me and called me hehe. and wanted to return the books to me de..but forgot. had so much fun there lol. played with spencer and watched underworld with mich. so cool to watch it and understand it better. only 2nd half of movie thou.

hmm nth else le..miss u lots darling..[muacks] ltr beef n white carrot soup for dinner..mmmm..

2004-03-29T01:11:00.000+08:00

Heyx pple..sorry forgot to update for 2 days!! lol. so here i am, gonna tell abt watever tt happen in tis 2 days.

Saturday: I was supposed to go to a post office to pay my O' Level exam fees and mail the lasalle application form. however last min then i know post office open for half day only, and already abt 3pm liao, so we walk abt at J8, play arcade then go pasar malam near zinc's hse. aft tt we walked to my hse 2gether. however there was a block party below my house, for the opening ceromany for the residents' corner. so darling wanted to 'chou re nao'. then we took some drinks there even thou we didnt buy the coupons hehee..then go sit at playground and walk abt. it was a chinese-culture event. it was small-scaled, had a chinese tea sampling and chinese ink drawing display. then we were hiding at the playground below from the eyes of my lil bro upstairs, lol. then finally he saw us aft very long. then the lil kids and darling played catching.

hehhe my darling really can run very fast!!! wooooomp! even thou sumtimes very hard to catch the nimble lil children, he still caught them. i think he will be great with kids! yea sum kids were a little too irritating but he never too rough or scold them harshly. i have always thot tt if i haf kids, i will teach them to be respectful and polite. unlike those rough and ill mannered children tt i haf seen, spoiled by their parents to the core. ur kids gif an impression on you isnt it. hmm. so nice to see darling play with them. they all called him korkor (like wat i told my lil bro to call him too).

a little girl even got caught up with darling playing with her tt she constantly wanted to sit on him and wanted him to swing her while sitting on him. Hehe cute! i wasnt jealous but the other kids couldnt bear it anymore and started demanding tt the lil girl better be brought home and not snatch other pple's bf. hahaha..so cute n funny..she is just a 5 year old girl! when i see all these, it just made me think tt he will be a good father in the future since he can bond well with kids. hopefully my kids' father of cos! :P hmm i just love him to bits...hehe ^_^ we went home at abt 11pm+.. hope he had fun even thou he ran so much hehe.. i got buy him drinks cos scared he thirsty aft running..i care lots! :D

Sunday: Hmm today just met up with sweetie again at abt 3pm with my bro. nowhere to go so go arcade and playyyy. always see this muscular man playing the samurai game. got sword there dun use, he go use his hand to wave around as a samurai sword. lol. aft tt then go eat tomyam for dinner and pasar malam again cos my bro haven go yet. today last day. then go home abt 8pm. so early..can do other things but he dun wan..guess we muz save $ de rite? :) so nvm..i lurve him and it will be just nice to see him and hug him (and lidat no need spend $ too! :P) Hehe..go home really got scolding as nelson nv keep his room tidy. Sheesh. today also is darren lim and evelyn tan's wedding..it was so nice and touching!!! something like a smaller-scaled Trista and Ryan's wedding. but theirs is fake anyway, its all for the viewership. lemme share another dream with u all..im gonna design my own wedding dresses in future! It will be better than any Vera Wang dress...lol. Its gonna be all entirely unique and one of its kind. why? cos im a fashion designer! ;)

Okay thats it for now..Gunbound finally to a silver axe!! 20k more to a pet-01..i couldnt decide wat to buy with all my gold. darling alr help me get the cool, funky witch hat and an electric spear. and with the bot oso cant see my clothes anyway. so pet would be best! matches my purple hat too :D Yay!!!!! Btw so disappointed..Arsenal vs man utd match..1-1 only!! Bye ya'all and Tke care!!!

2004-03-26T15:45:00.000+08:00

Hi pple again. now is raining.. so sian at home. i registered for O's as private candidate le. then going for lasalle too. if lasalle can, then i drop O's and take back the fees. If not, i continue to study for my O's. Hmm. simple and nice. hope i will get to somewhere in my life..sigh stoopid maths..D7..sigh.

my poor boy. outside is raining and he's still outside busying with his dad.. =( haiyo surely u know tt ill be sad if he falls sick or injured himself..cos he's my dearest! Hehe..anyway might be going out ltr.. i dunno? or maybe stay home and sian again.. i wanna watch the movie 203040. heard from mich tt scobby doo 2 is worse than the first..not funny and its lame. so dun watch!! :P so disappointing cos i thot it will be so much funnier.

Wah now on tv there is this girl whos about my age and she's singing oldies like pro at the show golden age!! wah her singing so nice..so smooth and deep. wow. if only i sing like her LOL. actually oldies are nice..

ok nth much le..see u bloggie.. [mUacks]-
Sign my guestbook!!!

2004-03-25T18:34:00.000+08:00

Hey...hmm.. guess what? TP send me a mail..and it was really to tell me the bad news!! shitt..lame TP :P 'Sorry but becos ur maths fail, you cannot enrol in'. HAI...sian rite. so i went to lasalle-sia to d/l the form for the same course (fashion design). Mich says the competition there is very high and standard there very good one..scary! And i registered for retake of O's as private candidate. Abt $160...whew. might be getting a private sch or private tutor? now focusing on lasalle now. if i can get into there, i can drop the retaking of O's and get my $ back too..heheh..

Hmm my darling working..he went to cut hair..everytime will look so shuai and cute :D still remember he had such short hair, but still look cuter in yet another special way. ^^ haha pple in love shld noe hows the feeling? even thou someone might not be a sexy babe or hunk, but when u love him/her for who they are, they are the most beautiful person to u :) im sorry darling if i ever hurt u.. :( [kiss frm the heart]

hehe might be going out ltr or not? depends on he free not..wat he cut finish will decide...hmm take care u all...will be kinda busy with the path to my future. haha. byebye!!

-sign the guestbook!! :I -

2004-03-24T17:46:00.000+08:00

*sigh* im soooo soo heart-broken...sad again....its our anniversary and he didnt wanna go out? he thinks its not big deal....so having me muz be no big deal? since he doesnt care maybe i shouldnt care too, wats the use? but even i say so..girls are all soft-hearted...who would heck care just like that? im just so hurt. i looked so forward to this day, yah? hmm.. its still the most impt day to me. so painnn inside..wondering how am i gonna tell my mum tt im not going out le..haha.

Then again, poor boy. maybe his work is too tiring....maybe i should be a more understanding gf... *sigh, will be spending this day alone, at home with family................

-still waiting for that TP's call....

2004-03-24T14:58:00.000+08:00

Hmm today another new day! Yesterday go out with darling to orchard shopping! so fun..but we got abit cold and kept sneezing..then my poor boy became soo tired..sorry! =(

And today is our anniversary!! 10th month! Yay..today might be going some place. Hmmm im happy to be spending it with him again!! Wheee~ and I sent him an email...and he likes it! =) hmm now toking to darling and chris online..

yesterday night i din slp until abt 5am, cos i couldnt slp. so came online and play GB since no one was around. wow i won many times and then got lots of gold..once was about 900+ gold!!! now my gp is abt 300 points away from the next rank. and abt 70k gold. shiok ar!

Hmm jus wake up at 2+ only..haven eat lunch..maybe eat 2gether with dinner. then can eat lotsss! :D hope today will be a good day. Lurve ya'all. Take care. and SIGN MY GUESTBOOK! :P

2004-03-23T15:50:00.000+08:00

Wheeee~! Sorry again, yesterday no post. forgot again. hehehe. Still waiting for TP..omg will they ever send anything? or appeal= no interview? Bahh..so scared..

ltr might be going out with darling..poor boy everyday oso work =( I want to make him happy..boring life is not good!! Heheh..now listening to Blink 182's I Miss You. "Dont waste your time on me, you're already the voice inside my head." The Alicia Keys's 'You Dont Know My Name'. Classy. The Cds I want nowadays? none...not much gotten a lot of attention or rave reviews. jolin might be one, but listening furthur, her new CD nothing much...so nvm ^^ . Ayumi's new 54 songs VCD/DVD? Great deal. After all, ALL her vids are made very nicely, with animation, cool clothes, beautiful makeup. Her MTVs are a attraction in itself. Well other songs are very nice too.

Hmm just now got rain abit outside, weather forecast said it'll be raining..but awhile later all's shining bright again. Weee..Lovie my darlinggg.. *hugs all* Take careee.

2004-03-22T14:27:00.000+08:00

Ohayo! I yesterday forgot to add my post yesterday, too lazy la :P haha anyway nothing much abt yesterday. was at home for whole day. today finally wake up early..at 11pm! ^^; just now help my mom vacumn the floor finish..aiyoh so hot man..

So sian today, dunno can go out anot. my mummy cook dinner le...waaa~ and missss himmm as usual :P i found out so many things abt arowana from my papa's books (one is $20+ and the other $50+!!) so interesting abt them. my papa is considering getting one..the usual behaviour from going-into-retirement people! :Pi one had maximum 15 luohans at home..haha

sigh, im sitll worrying abt my future. nothing has happened since their call that day. *prays hard* hope there will be a bright future ahead!! nth much for now..mummy mopping floor liao..byebye!

2004-03-20T17:41:00.000+08:00

Hey-o...guess what? TP called me yesterday le! But just for address...if got bad news cant be send over the mail and not on the phone wan right? haha. hope i will get in.. my darling got into the engineering course he wanted in NYP le.. goodie~! I want the Jolin CD...waaa..so many advertisements abt it haha. Michelle gave me so much bad news yesterday. pretty harsh as usual, that mich. :P

hmmm today woke up at near 3pm? haha. i slp at 5 yesterday!! my brain keep dun wan to slp..make me so tired. then had campbell's soup for lunch...miss my darling! he go chalet of his pri sch friend's elder bro.. ummm-hmm. going to play GB and stuff liao..see u all around! Sign my guestbooK! :P *hugs all*

2004-03-19T14:07:00.000+08:00

Hello..hmm a goodie friday today! my bro is watching haunted mansion now..borrowed from darling de.. finally i am happy! yesterday finally go out...somemore with darling...shop around then go watch The Eye 2. he actually arranged it on saturday with lots of friends but some watch already. Scary theme with scary sounds. Arrr! haha. i actually didnt watch most of it..only watch the non-scary parts :P so scared of those ghosts suddenly appear..then they still add those scary shocking sounds..

sigh, time to be sad again :P so scary..u know wat michelle emailed and told me? Here's it:

"you know what? you have to pay $7 of registration fee at TP personally before you can actually appeal. If they give you an interview but you failed it, then you can appeal. Why appeal when you haven't even done an interview!? Shane has alr had his second interview and it went well. I guess you won't be getting a call any sooner. Because if you haven't registered, your name wouldnt be there for an appeal or anything else! I think you better make plans to retake the O levels. That's what I found out. Sorry to break the bad news. If I were you, I would give O levels another shot. "

Sigh. bad bad luck eh? hah. i wanna go TP!!!! and i had thot that registering is only for pple whose results qualified? and those who disqualified had to appeal? arRrGh!! anyway the registering period is until 31st march. hope still got chance..or i go Lasalle or maybe retake O's. which im very reluctant to. im SO stupid right? my future's at STAKE!

sigh, lucky my darling can go to a great poly. i would go if only it had design courses, lol. Bless him. Hehe. Love to huggie him..everything will be alright then.. hope I will have a great weekend, hope all of you will haf too! Wish me luck! Bye~

2004-03-18T13:40:00.000+08:00

Wheee. the previous post was written on wednesday, but i had to rush off so quickly tt i had to save it in a draft first. hmm just published it only. so pls dun mind! ^^

hmm im feeling good today, hope today will be yet another happy day in the view of the previous sad days. there are movies i like to watch! so long nv go cinema le.. hmm. now kids central is the baby looney tunes cartoon..all become baby...so cute!

hmm i got nuthing much to say today. except i got smth shocking yesterday night..haha..so unexpected!! so scary. lol. see ya! and PLS!! write my guestbook!!! =P

2004-03-18T13:39:00.000+08:00

Hey.....hows my friends? :) Today was abit bad for me..cos i had to stay home again!! and teach my bro again!!! really sian. cooped up here for like a week le. hai gonna be dinner time..stomach growling...heee..

hmmm sad sad...i hope ill be forgiven..hope the misunderstanding clears soon..hmm. we shall not talk abt it liao...i slept at like 4am yesterday? haha cos was reading this book, Catherine Lim's Following the Wrong God Home. Her other stories are soo nice too. I look forward to her next book! The stories are literaturistic (did i spell tt right?) and realistic and beautiful in its own way. Well i read it plenty of times already..all are thick books! lol. one section has a story of a Epitaph Woman, said by the story's main character Yin Ling. A woman was married at twenty, had a good husband, but then a man came into her life and left shortly. oh, how she pined for the man who changed her life. her heart became dead and she was just a living corpse. Later on her tombstone, she had instructed to leave the words "Died at thirty and buried at sixty"

Such a sad story. Like Yin Ling, i dont want to be that woman. no one wants to be. Hmm good story right? i recommend it. Wheeee..just ate dinner..wash dishes until my finger skin became rough and came off..abit. bah. now my dad is screaming behind me. dieee. i have to go keep the room too. *rushes offf*

2004-03-16T16:51:00.000+08:00

*sigh* another sad day again...much as I like to throw away the feelings, it just came back! hahaha...
Now watching this movie on ch 5, abt a young woman with the powers of strength in a zoo, dealing with a lion. nt bad show. b4 that was watching shi zhi lu kou..

hai. sooo soo sad. i really didnt do it intentionally..i hope he still have trust in me. all i do, i never thot of harming him. first of all im a sensitive person.. i cry easily. sigh. well, as long as my conscience is clear..i hope he will understand..i felt really guilt-stricken for making him sad, unintentionally. now he dun even want to see me. =( i really like him so much and find him cute, and i will never ACT in front of him. never. wats the use of acting, gossiping, and intentionally harming him? almost 10 months liao..he's the dearest person in my life. i would never wanna hurt him intentionally. anyone would be really hurt if they were me. well we certainly do have our own share of fights, but we have happy times too. hope he will forgive me soon. sigh, wats done is done..i only hope i'll be forgiven. I still miss him, so many days since I've seen him.

Here's a verse i love when im upset.-

.:\how can u mend a broken heart?/:.

And how can you mend a broken heart?
How can you stop the rain from falling down?
How can you stop the sun from shining?
What makes the world go round?
How can you mend this broken man?
How can a loser ever win?
pLease heLp mE meNd my brOkEn heaRt.. aNd let mE livE aGaiN......~

-bEe geEs-

*bah, xi wang yu guo tian qing...*

2004-03-15T17:43:00.000+08:00

Wheee-woo-yah! wasss sooo bored today again :P so bored tt i wan to call pple and tok.. yesterday night near 4am then fell asleep? heheh.

still haf to teach my bro homework today..he haf so much, but my afternoon was spent online. He was too naughty to listen to me. ask him dun play comp he still play. sigh.

Today darling online, offline, online, offline..hmm no time to tok to him =\ hope he dun angry me... but he hurt me first and then i got mad. =X forgive n forget... sigh all these write into my blog so in the future know wat happen before :P I really miss him so much!! No time to go out with him de.. =
Lalala...at least got spend time online today. Later maybe my bro and my papa go out buy things liao then i go online awhile or call him.. and 'someone' got scolded badly online today by zinc!!! Scold until very bad sia..orbi!! Hahhaa...he has bad character, i think. Well...not up to me to talk but hope she doesnt get hurt..or I will certainly kill him! wahahah.....well its always the girls tt get hurt huh. power to the ladies! :P

Haha, k tts all for today~!

*Im missing you so much, you know? Maybe you dont..*

2004-03-14T16:54:00.000+08:00

Haiyo...another boring sunday. still waiting for TP pple to call me abt my interview..was wondering if they work during the March Holidays? hmmm...

Today was supposed to teaching my bro abt his homework, i wasnt allowed to play the comp cos i haf to 'teach', which simply meant i had to sit there and do nothing. cos my bro is so lazy...sigh..he might haf to drop to Em3. tts bad huh. he loves $ but dun wan earn it..lol. dumbo.

was so frustrated jus awhile ago...so sian with everything. i wan pple to treat me nice...its not like every day im happy right? at least think abt my feelings man...im sure everyone out there doesnt wanna be treated badly. Its right to say tt whatever you give for it, ur reward should be the same, or perhaps even more, cos u did ur best. Yeh, thats all... trouble man. sad... i didnt think i could be sacrificed so easily just to a dare? feelings, man...

Bahh, and today my parents went to The Fish Show in changi...my dad is in love with the arowana now, haha, aft the luo han craze. Well he is getting old and more easily tired now... =( hope both my parents will live long long... My ATm card got confiscated yesterday night!!! =P so sian, mummy says i spent too much..i miss my card =P nvm ill start saving... hehehe. Its really quiet here now, everyone is takin afternoon nap cept for me..later then cannot play comp liao..go teach my stupid bro stupid homework..

Sigh, wat a boring day!!!! (yet again =P ) Love to ya'all....

2004-03-13T17:19:00.000+08:00

Bahhh...so boring todayyyy! Yesterday night he say he prefers my brother's present to mine ( a hand-made handicraft). So sad~..but im just happy he like the meaning to it..and my letter.. hmm.. at least nv do wasted right. hah.

Lalala.. ^^ My darling has gone out wif calvin to play arcade..then go his hse watch soccer match..bolton vs charlton! Sheesh both are lousy! :P Well not much interested in these teams, and man utd got so lousy now.. cos got no rio ferdinand! hahaha..

nth much to say today, i might go out later..its so boring today. playin neopets only..wheeeee...

*still expecting call from temasek poly...waaaa...hope they call soon!*

2004-03-12T17:41:00.000+08:00

Wheeee..today have American Idol: Uncut.Uncensored & Untalented!! hahaa dumb william hung... thats TOO much publicity for him. And stupid publicity for American Idol. LOL but I wanna watch it today....he's so funny cos he's so nerdy.

Hmmm..today my darling is here...at my hse..but my mummy is home too :P so just watch tv and i play comp. hmm today got the very nice meat cooked by my godma...mix of potatoes,onions, pork...the smell is nice!

Today got nth much..yesterday i stay up till 1am+ to do something for darling..my bro teach me de, he learn it himself during art class..haha..its something like a kite. and i write a nicenice letter for him too..hope he'll like it. Love Ya Baby!

Hmmmm..muz go pei him or he very bored...nth much today...takecare everyone. and do write in my guestbook! =P Bye!

2004-03-11T17:21:00.000+08:00

Oooh a new day..so many pple see my bloggie! Pls do gimme comments on MSN or contact me thru email *points up to 'MY Links'*!!! I HAVE added a guestbook so pls do sign it soon!! Or you can wait *if* I make a new webbie :P but webbies give me such a headache and chris wont help me with it.... -___-

Yesterday so headache man. i got so giddy =x Why? Cos I was trying to do the website on geocities and they said something about layers! So boring and complicated. whenever i try to think hard, i get giddy. =S hmm today my bro's teacher called, guess my brother is in for big trouble... and weikun bought me a kylie minogue vcd! *smooches* Yesterday went with him only to the exhibition..nothing much lar.

I have so much things to do for my art...mich just told me i have to do it like O's! An A2 size! Bahhh...might have to go back to school and take stuff from miss quek. And an accident happened in my old sch..the roof fell and hit a student! LOL they shld move outta there asap..its such an old school! So dangerous..

Hmm my darling help me go find the black boards for my portfolio..im gonna just be online for awhile.. see ya! Wad a boring day it is!!!!!

2004-03-10T14:20:00.000+08:00

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Fairy Name:Eleanor [Nice eh? ;)]

Hmmm harlow again!! Im so proud of my blog =P I now intend to change it every now and then... if i see a new design, that is. Also mght be setting up a new website..so i can post photos etc.

Haha..there's this australian woman by the name of lucy or whatever. she called last night and interview me! And asked me lots of sex-related questions. Ewww. Im guessing its a prank. I dont wanna talk about it like im pervertive, or tt i need to do it every time. yucksss. i think sex is meant to be beautiful and all..to be done with ur loved one. Thats all you need if u have a fufilling life. To be realisitic, there is really so much pple out there who have sex like breathing air. But i just believe in what i think. Well thats my view.. ;)

Ahh yesterday went out with weikun and my brother. to j8 just for fun. slp at 12+. hmm i wonder if i i will be able to get into Temasek Poly (apparel design and merchandising course)? I appealed for it few days ago le.. im praying hard to get in.

Hmm, i think i have lots of things in my mind. So many pple will be viewing my blog so i cant say it all out. Bahhh. Sometimes i just feel bad within me..u know, the feeling of inferiority..etc etc. Pple can just get so upset sometimes. I hope U (whoever who reads this) will be happy, ya know. =) Im a happy-happy person so i dun let things get me down easily.. taking things in my stride. Wheeeeee...

Later might be going out with Mich and Weikun to see the Australian Fashion and contemporary designs exhibition in Raffles City..See Ya'all.

2004-03-09T07:45:00.000+08:00

Hello...ooh my own blog! Yay! Heheh writing a blog should be fun! Hope pple will like reading my blog..

Okay, let's talk about me! On 7th March, which is my darling's birthday, I secretly planned a celebration 4 him..i knew his birthdays werent very much celebrated in the past (all boys dun seem to care much abt their birthdays hor!) so this year..cos he has me now..i muz make it special! Sooo..he didnt expect that much pple on tt day. We first go karaoke..i didnt sing but it was nice to hear him sing.. Then we went to Jumbo Seafood at East Coast Park. I loveeee the seafood there and it was nice inside me to see him eat so happily and enjoying himself. Haha, also got birthday song played! Everyone turned and looked at the bd boy..*he really looks so cute* =P He's sooo special he only wants ice cream cake. lucky din melt. Pple who went are hongwei, calvin, tzehoong(stupid nv bring cindy let me see..), noel, issac, zhuang ze, shirely, weikun, me and my brother. Well thats abt it. my first blog in blog-world! Wahaha....

See u all around!